Thinking about leaving

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I'm thinking about leaving my job for good this time.

First time was a mental breakdown due to manager having a go at me because i was breaking some stupid rule about listening to my own music whilst i could see many others using their mobile phone to either call someone, text and blatantly disregarding rules over usage of phones in the workplace and now that they are banned for good. Retreated to the empty shower room to cool off, didn't go as far as leaving though.

Second was a manager (bearing in mind i have about 5 managers on duty per day) asking me to go to a different department (im also trained in most departments), a dislikable manager that one had me go to a rough work area, despite rules dictating that you cannot be forced to work in undesirable conditions. Snuck out the back door signed out and left (place is like a maze so its easy to avoid management) - they let me off that one because i was meant to be one of the hard working ones.

Third being today and notice music being louder than usual and conveniently playing the worst possible stations and also conveniently rules being as they are, won't permit me to wear anything to help me concentrate on my work. I can't possibly be expected to work here for the forseeable future when i have to listen to this rubbish everyday especially on minimum wage and long hours not to forget the regular phone user who i dont see punished for their actions.

all departments have radio installed, plus i'm not allowed to deviate from my department regularly since its an integral part of how the workplace operates and it needs every good worker it can get.

I just can't face going back in even though I want to work, i'm just afraid what they will think of me if show my face there, what to say to management. They said they would have a word with the technicians about lowering volume levels within my department and i'm not sure if this was a stress reaction or something that is going to happen as long as there is music playing. Fire safety regulations rule out the possibility that I could wear earplugs or earphones and i already get slight sensory issues from the noisy environment.

If you are not going in then think about making an appointment with your doctor. Sorry to hear about your problem, I have the same reaction to the radio at work.

I had 2 options though (now realistically only one), either tell my employer that i have sensory issues or SPD and that every time something out of routine happens like a change in volume or environment resulted in a meltdown. Only issue with this is if i detailed it on my application in the first place, chances are i would have not been offered the position because it's in such a noisy environment and would have avoided this ordeal altogether - plus i don't have any such disorder on my medical records, only some childhood pervasive disorder that they insisted i grew out of.

The second option would be to go to the doctor which is easier said than done to explain my situation, to say something like "i recently left work and been suspended until i can sort this out, so i had one of many meltdowns in work as a result of too many sounds going on at once which is a new thing to me as I only started work 2 months ago as a real first job - possibly even a result of working long hours for an extended period of time, sometimes for 5 to 6 days at a time".

I feel like i've connected to so many people it would seem a waste to quit at such an abrupt time even though there is little chance of progression and it being a temporary job with just 2 months left. That and what my family might think of me if I don't manage to get my job back.

Well i have no choice under the circumstances but to go the doctor otherwise the employer will have every right to fire me because i couldn't deal with the stress and demands of the workplace, and they want evidence that i had a nervous breakdown because it has been 2 months without having such an incident and they think its real suspicious that it just flared up out of no-where. Obviously i was in an irrational state of mind and regret ever doing it, and more and more I just want to go back and resume my duties like nothing ever happened.

Good luck with the doc. Perhaps they will suggest medication &/or counseling which might could be potentially beneficial.