During middle school, I became quiet around people at school to avoid the bullying. Around people I knew well enough, and my family, I was very talkative until about a year ago when I started correcting some of my Aspie characteristics. My dad used to complain that I wasn't letting him speak. Now I just let him and everyone else speak as much as they want to, and talk only when it is barely necessary. I've settled into a very quiet manner, but I'm depressed (just the feeling I think, not clinical depression, at least not yet; I hope it doesn't turn into that) because I feel like I have to stay quiet. I would say what I want, about the transportation stuff I am interested in, but it might leave me more socially isolated because others will not be interested in it. The void that I have in my knowledge of popular culture and my ability to phrase things in a way that gives them emotional content that makes interaction difficult, but more so in groups. Someday I hope to find the confidence to speak up more than I do now. But when I do, while it matter? Will my words then have an impact or be, to others, useless drivel?