Woops, slipped there. . . Um yeah . . . so . . .
Ok, SporadSpontan, thank You for the understanding. So um yeah I wrote that didn't I ?
Here is the shortest explanation I can come up with... here it is...
Music, that's my technique... Got out of the funk already, and am already feeling detached from that last post I slipped out.
Of course I do respect animals for their instinct driven natures. . . Like when you try you can see GOD in their eyes even though they are merely animals. Animals live in the woods. I want to move into the woods in a Nice camper If my life falls apart (When my wife can't deal with me anymore or I give up). I also am concerned about the meaning of my existence. Years ago I decided to be a DAD, so I married a Lovely NT woman. Now we both have our hands full, but we found meaning in our lives. (I am a capable role model, but I have never been able to tune into my wife's channel). I look after my family but in order to live this normal Life one has to be as tough as nails yet as nonchalant about the "Little Stuff" as everyone else. Which is almost impossible for me to do. Although both of my sons carry my characteristics I have passed on my body and nature into the littlest one. He is my life after death. Anyways I need to be there for my sons, the worst reason but one I am most afraid of is the person who would come in and take my place, could not live up to my ethical and moral standards. I think my purpose in life would become the most painful life one could live [watching my flesh and blood suffer at new Dad's lack of understanding.( NTs don't seem to understand aspies, and don't like being outsmarted)]. So I think It would almost be best for me to be weekend Dad by postcard from the woods where I can find peace.
I don't know what she thinks. I just read her face which is uniquely stone. But when I'm being hit with fallacy I respond with condescension in my tone and hate myself for it. Not cool. So that's how we dance. Its just not healthy.
I hopped on this site in the middle of one of these dances (I'm kinda being shunned), and wrote down what I may need to do eventually (for my own sanity) and my deepest fears about it. oops, seemed alright at the time.
Yep and this is Aspergers... not Fun
But too much about me.
God in a doG?
What do you think?
To do with religion and God.
I don't blame anyone or thing for the troubles in my life. Its what it is.
hello?
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