I no longer believe
As regards a Scriptural basis for doubting, there's the conversation in John 11...the account of the raising of Lazarus. Martha is grieving her brother and can't help but question and doubt and even accuse Jesus a little. Jesus doesn't reprimand her for it but very gently answers her doubts; she makes a confession of faith fully equal to Peter's; she doubts again and Jesus answers her again. So often that's how it goes - doubt and answer and more doubt.
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"Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus...when he came, he found that Lazarus had already been in the tomb four days. When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went and met him, while Mary sat in the house.
"Martha said to Jesus, 'Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. And even now I know that whatever you ask from God, God will give you.'
"Jesus said to her, 'Your brother will rise again.'
"Martha said to him, 'I know that he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day.'
"Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and whoever lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?'
"She said to him, 'Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, who is coming into the world.'
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"Jesus said, 'Take away the stone.'
"Martha said to him, 'Lord, by this time there will be an odor, for he has been dead four days.'
"Jesus said to her, 'Did I not tell you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?'
"So they took away the stone."
Unfortunately, I can't just believe things based on pure speculation.
And it's clear that you worship a god that suits your own standards (not necessarily the God of the Bible). Which is really not that bad. Better to worship the god that you worship anyway.
Just goes to show how most religious organizations are more political by nature than they are religious.
Yes, Roman Catholicism preaches salvation by grace through faith + works, but that only goes to show that their definition of "grace" is different from that in the Paulean Epistles. That's also why they don't understand the Biblical meaning of justification and sanctification.
In the Bible, grace and works are mutually exclusive. Just as you can't say that a triangle can be a square at the same time, you can't say that one is saved by grace through one's faith and works. Either it's God who saved you or your righteousness that saved you.
For a bit of my own story, I'm a "revert". Never formally separate from the Church but pretty darned lax about living the life until God tapped me on the shoulder, so to speak, to get my attention. I know exactly what that feeling MCalavera describes is; and I know that it does pass. (One convert described it as God holding us by the hands until we're able to take a few steps on our own.) For me, it was long gone by the time I nearly threw everything away - faith, God, all of it - in disgust over the latest chapter of the sex abuse scandal. I didn't do that; instead I forced myself to get up and go to weekday Mass even though that wasn't my normal habit and it was the absolute last thing I had any desire to do. I would define faith as that - that raw knowledge of God that was there even when everything in me wanted to turn and run. And I'd say that my faith is the stronger for having had that experience and having been forced to make that explicit choice.
That sounds like the kind of faith that an abused wife has in her husband no matter how badly he continues to abuse her.
Jesus quoted Moses when He said the greatest commandment is to "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, your mind, and your strength." So that makes TWO places in the Bible that say the same thing. So there you have it: Love God with all your MIND.
So you love God with ALL your mind and heart and soul and whatever else you've got in you?
I doubt it. You're a limited being after all.
Not that I know of. In fact, the Bible links faith to assurance - assurance of things we can't see.
Maybe. I personally have yet to meet one. I had several Christian "brothers" confess to me that they, too, had doubts about their faith. And not one Christian has ever denied (to me) that he had doubts about his faith. Even Natty, our dear fellow member, admits that it's normal (and she's a Christian).
You could find scripture - starting from I believe - help my unbelief -.But if you are a Didymoid, as I am, you don't need scripture, it just is. EVERYTHING is constantly reexamined in light of incoming data. I have known some - my late mother-in-law - a definite non-questioner, she got there, it was, she did not poke at it. I have known others who could just decide on a topic and hold it firm. Me, I am now as I have always been a skeptic - look and check. Tonight, 2 + 2 = 4 [to ten significant figgers]. Ask me again tomorrow. I expect it to be the same, but we will see.
Admittedly, that's a very good way of looking at things. But how it made you become a Christian with such an outlook is still beyond me.
I don't think you are going to find that here because the answer is within yourself, not in other peoples beliefs.
There have been three topics on mysticism in this forum in as many months and it seems clear from them that few people know what it is or are interested in finding out. The first objective of a mystic is to know yourself and this is done by a process called “recollection” which begins with meditation.
You might want to try it.
Thanks, but I'm perfectly happy with my current beliefs and outlook. Mysticism is just like any religion in which logic is always subject to superstitious/spiritual beliefs. I don't plan to go there no more.
I suspected that, but I wanted to consider the possibility that you were telling the truth about your reasons for participating in this debate, unlikely as that was. If you were, you might have been interested in my suggestion.
Alas, you are still playing the same game you used to play as a Christian, aren't you? You just changed teams, thats all.
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My given name is Kenneth
For a bit of my own story, I'm a "revert". Never formally separate from the Church but pretty darned lax about living the life until God tapped me on the shoulder, so to speak, to get my attention. I know exactly what that feeling MCalavera describes is; and I know that it does pass. (One convert described it as God holding us by the hands until we're able to take a few steps on our own.) For me, it was long gone by the time I nearly threw everything away - faith, God, all of it - in disgust over the latest chapter of the sex abuse scandal. I didn't do that; instead I forced myself to get up and go to weekday Mass even though that wasn't my normal habit and it was the absolute last thing I had any desire to do. I would define faith as that - that raw knowledge of God that was there even when everything in me wanted to turn and run. And I'd say that my faith is the stronger for having had that experience and having been forced to make that explicit choice.
That sounds like the kind of faith that an abused wife has in her husband no matter how badly he continues to abuse her.
No. It's the kind of faith that sees any wife and husband past those first newlywed months. Soon or late, the warm romantic feelings fade and that first argument happens - and if the marriage was only ever about the infatuation, what then? Divorce court, with each party placing all the blame on the other and refusing to look at themselves? My earlier discursion on the Apostles, etc, was in aid of the point that faith doesn't stay warm and fuzzy and pleasant, and it's unrealistic to expect that it will. Not many of us encounter the extremes that they did, of course; but it's just as true that we can't skate through on the strength of emotion alone.
Ok ... keep telling yourself that, Natty.
Have you met your white knight in shining armor (besides Jesus, I mean)?
If your looking for scripture relating to perseverance and doubt. Try the Psalms. You will not have to go far into it to find reassurance.
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Life is real ! Life is earnest!
And the grave is not its goal ;
Dust thou art, to dust returnest,
Was not spoken of the soul.
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Ok ... keep telling yourself that, Natty.
Have you met your white knight in shining armor (besides Jesus, I mean)?
So Hans Christian Anderson is a psychologist now?
That actually isn't what the Bible says. The Bible says in multiple places that those who never hear the word won't have that held against them and will be judged by a different standard. only those who hear the word and reject it are in any trouble. I'd quote some passages for you, but the Bible is a big book and I don't have those particular passages memorized: they're all over the place and hard to pinpoint. but they are there.
There are plenty of people who will have heard the bible's message and yet rejected it to adhere to the traditional religion of their homeland. The majority of people everywhere accept the majority religion of their homeland. Tradition is a strong draw.
To suggest that some young woman be tortured for eternity simply because she is raised in a certain culture by her family, hearing the gospel once or twice from some fevered stranger on a street corner is just bizarre and does not meet modern standards of justice.
As with many aspects of biblical morality, modern moral thought is often superior to bronze age notions of justice.
"But how it made you become a Christian with such an outlook is still beyond me."
Well, naturally. If I talked from now till next January nonstop I could not communicate all the data and processing. Same way I cannot comprehend how my paleontologist brother - who has, for all the differences between us, a good head and an unwillingness to bow down to falsehood even where it could enhance his position - can sit on the seat where he is. I cannot work from his pile of data, nor with his head.
Frankly, this time of year in 1986 it would have mystified me too. Missing vital data,
Give you a very applicable analogy. In my field there was a very knotty problem, stumped a few very good minds [my PhD supervisor had a crack at it, got nowhere. I worked on it 1964-1974, collecting data, looking at parallels in other languages, making no progress. Well, about this time in 1974, I reached the tipping point. Sitting at home thinking over some newly in data, thde hypothesis popped - THIS is how it works. I spend the next four months going over all the data, checking, working it out, finding where it needed fine tuning.
The 1986 incident followed exactly the same pattern - a tipping point in the data, and a lot that had NOT made sense did.
I do think, looking at postings here, that I was lucky in that came out of an environment where Christianity was never talked about. I did not have to get rid of misinformation.
