I agree with the above posters. Just because you can't go to Turkey and because you have been annoying your cousin is no reason to want to die, or to die. You are 15. You have probably 60 more years of life ahead, which can be a lot better once you get the psychiatric treatment you need. Trust me, I've wanted to die and I've tried to kill myself even, but I'm glad it didn't work and I'm glad I'm alive, even with the shitstorm of stress thats going on with me right now.
From reading your other posts, I would also agree with the psych treatment idea. I would take some time this summer and even go inpatient if they thought it would help, because that way they can start you on meds and get them adjusted for you. If your ankle was hurting so bad you couldn't walk then you would go to the doctor about it, why is going to the doctor to get your mind fixed any different? Your problems can be helped by a professional. There is no need to suffer with this. Just go to the doctor. Tell your parents you want to get some help. I'm pretty sure they would be very supportive about that idea.
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