I'm 16, and my religious views have evolved over time.... back in the 8th grade, i didnt take religion seriously, and throughout middle school i was even an atheist, at times..... but ever since i started getting locked up (once, in a mental hospital in the summer before 9th grade, for a week, once in the RYDC, for a night, once, in a long term mental hospital for 3 weeks, and once, in another mental hospital for 8 days,) I have increasingly turned towards religion to solve my problems... the first wave was in 9th grade.... then in the 10th grade, when I began relying on religion to provide my life with structure and meaning, rather than just as a tool to pray to God when in need.... now, I don't listen to music, i still don't eat pork, i dont watch filthy types of media, i pray 5 times a day, etc. and I even believe in shariah law, but this greatly annoys my mother.... she has even forbade me from talking about religion with her, not because I shove it down her throat, but when I share with her my research, since I am fascinated by religion, and because of the wording of my questions i ask her (i.e., is a caliphate a requirement, mom?) she has forbade me. My dad even thinks I'm too literalist, even though he's one of the most religious people I know..... furthermore, i believe in shariah, but shariah has turned into such a spooky word, im afraid to even share my beliefs with liberal Muslims..... what should I do?