Bloodheart wrote:
Henbane - aren't you assuming we all believe in sins and hell?
I'm pagan so don't see suicide as sinful, just tragic.
What happens to someone when they commit suicide is the same as what happens when someone dies any other way - although my beliefs are that we live on after death through living memory, the more people remember us or the more we achieve while we're alive the longer we live on after death. If a person commits suicide chances are that they do so because they have achieved nothing or have little impact in the world around them and so are less likely to be remembered after death - in fact I think people have a tendency to ignore people's suffering, so if anything I think that people who commit suicide are more easily forgotten.
Thus why I would not commit suicide unless I have no way of achieving anything or if my suicide would be remembered such as if I was to martyr myself over a cause. My beliefs mean I personally don't believe in suicide...but if others commit suicide then that's their business.
I'm not assuming anything really. I know that there are a diverse range of views in PPR. But the word hell comes from 'hel' I think. Hel being a daughter of Loki, and a place where some of the dead go. I don't know how prevalent this belief is today, but I imagine some followers of Asatru must still have a belief in 'hell'. Although of course the ideas about what happens in hell differ between Christian and Norse perspectives.
I don't know about sin in Asatru though. But I think the gods are said to take more of an interest in people who live strong lives, who are deserving of their attention. I don't think someone who commits suicide, or attempts suicide, would be seen favourably by the norse gods.
I realise there are many different strands to paganism. I used to know more about the pagan traditions, but most of what I have ever learned I have forgotten.
By your description of a good life, or a life of achievement, I have failed. When I do die, practically noone will remember me. I'm not sure I can remedy this at the moment.
It is interesting that you talk about not believing in suicide. When I attempted suicide I had no beliefs, no philosophy that I was drawing from. Just blackness and misery. An absence of any sense in the world. Apart from those who commit suicide for ideological reasons, or honour, I imagine most people who commit suicide are in a similar situation. That is, unable to relate to any moral beliefs they may have about suicide, as they are so immersed in disordered thinking or depression.
Anyway, I realise that I am waffling here. Its a difficult subject for me. I appreciate everyone's replies to this thread. I have been having a lot of dark thoughts recently, both about my past actions, and my situation today. When it comes to religion, I find it hard to be logical.