Sorry to hear, tech. I know it can be overwhelming.
The Rooster Mass was at a “historically black” Catholic Church. Cities in the Mississippi Delta are no longer segregated, but they still live in the shadows of segregation. So you still have bizarre sights like an “African American” Catholic church that is considered an important landmark while “regular people” attend mass at the Gothic Revival church downtown. Oh, and incidentally—the big Baptist church is across the street to the south and the Hebrew Temple is across the street to the east.
Anyway...Sacred Heart is tiny compared to St. Joseph and serves as a mission to African American and Hispanic people. I walked in to find the choir area equipped with a Hammond drawbar organ, a drum set, and a piano. The regular choir was four women, and their pianist had bailed on them at the last minute. I wasn’t familiar with their usual mass setting, so I couldn’t really help them except maybe on one song. The Filipino choir had obviously practiced on their own a few times, so that was a lot of fun. Certainly a long way from what I’m used to with in-ear monitors! The Spanish choir sang at the end...but bless their hearts they had maybe one decent singer and I think everyone else just picked a random note to sing. I knew the song but there was no way I could follow them.
My wife said, “they sounded really sincere.”
Back in my college days we’d have made fun of these people and avoid taking gigs like that. Makes me wonder why their scheduled pianist didn’t show up. But now when I play gigs like that it’s refreshing because 1) low pressure, and 2) I feel less like they’re just going through the motions. I like my usual Sunday gig because we have energetic music. But even then there are those days when I’m just not feeling it and it feels forced. The Catholics love me because my usual playing style is closer to Pentecostal church music (which is the best, anyway), except apparently I’m easier to work with than actual Pentecostal piano players. Small churches and multicultural and even multilingual churches seem much more authentic in their worship. There’s nothing wrong with big churches, either. My point is that if big crowds and big productions are a problem, especially with sensory issues, these smaller churches have a lot to offer. The risk with mass at the other church is that they CAN feel uptight, stuffy, and awkward. But if going to church is meaningful for you, it’s not hard to find a place where you feel at home.