i suddenly realised very clearly that i was going to die ( for the first time that i can remember since I was 17),when i read Crichton's book "Fear", and Bjorn Lomborg's book" The Sceptical Environmentalist" in 2005.
I suddenly realised that the planet and the human species might outlive me. This was such a shock i promptly stopped smoking, as out of the blue "fear of/belief in death" hit!! Belief in "Catastrophic Climate Change" had been a very effective lid on it.
I agree that Western society tends to sweep it so far under the carpet you can almost kid yourself it's not true. Death isn't real; i've never seen it! Well, actually i have, dead cats and pigeons and dogs and rabbits and frogs ( biology class), but never a human.
I wondered whether the whole "catastrophic climate-change" thing might be a kind of mechanism for avoiding facing the certainty of ones own death; like a kind of "sour grapes", "I don't care if i don't live into the next century because it's going to be absolutely AWFUL anyway!", ( when the grapes are actually FINE ), OR, a lot nastier, a "dog in the manger" behaviour ...... "If I'm not going to see the next century neither is anyone else".
Realised that i had, completely unconsciously, been comforting myself with the idea that would not go into that dark night alone. Would be accompanied by several tens of millions of other people. Like an extra large Jonestown incident.