Outrider wrote:
There were many courtyards and nice, open-public spaces to sit. Feels far more liberating when you can eat and explore at the same-time almost every corner and area of the school-grounds.
this was mine. i remember sitting with a group of juniors as a freshman on a dirt floor by the front of the school, around a hole in the ground. food scraps went in there. the "pit worm" would feed in there.
i remember one day after a rain, the hole was fulled with mud. i was playing with it with my mudproof shoe. my crush/future limerent object and her boyfriend were kissing nearby. either my foot slipped, or it hit a bubble in the mud and it sprayed all over her pants.
i felt like the smallest person in the universe. she gave me a hug and sent me into a downwards spiral that i would not begin to recover from until the present day.
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