What do spend most of your days thinking about?

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"And THESE are supposed to the best years of my life..."

What am I thinking about right now? Call of Duty World at War (Just been playing it for 6 hours and only came off it half an hour ago).

What I tend to think about: My AS and my desire to have a gf. Also the rock group Nickelback 'cos I love loads of their songs.

I am thinking of the day I can get a PhD degree, then having a session speaking on how I 'triumphed' my conditions to go this far, then... how I can gracefully kick the bucket.

My bf, dee weekend, anime, friends, music, sex (It's mainly when I'm EXTERMLY bored), and whatever tings I have to do that day in paritcular.

I tink I'll explain dee sex part in another post, it's kinda interesting to explain for a particular reason.

farthering a family and get my game company up and runing also I think about existence in genral.

I worry alot. I worry about being isolated, about making friends. About graduating high school.
I pretty much feel as though I've failed at life, even considering my age. I have failed to act like a teenager. I have had very few friends, and have missed out on many typical experiences. I failed school (twice). And even though the social aspect of my life is slowing starting to improve, I am still confused and sometimes frightened as to whether or not I will be let down.
Oh, but when I daydream, I think about the Smashing Pumpkins.

Contrary to my reputation, deep emotional, political and philosophical stuff, not dirty jokes.

Drawing, I'm always thinking of new ideas and when I'm bored like at school when I've done my work I just keep drawing picture after picture efter picture like a machine or something. Dreams, I just think about them all the time and what dreams I've had in the past. Making up films in my head, I'm obsessed, I just spend hours a day thinking about a new film with characters and plots and everything. After joining this site I've been thinking about ASDs and all that stuff. At the moment I keep on thinking about leaving school as it is happening very soon, when I do think of this I get really depressed about it.