Confused and upset about something that happened...

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There was a boy on my school bus who's moving this weekend, and he'd said he might not be at school on Friday (so Thursday might be his last day there). So on Thursday, I hugged him goodbye and said "Since I might not see you again..." and he said, "I'll be here tomorrow," and I said, "Oh, really?" and leaned back, and he leaned in and kissed me. (Having had a crush on him since September, I simply replied, "Oh! Thanks, that was, um...wow!" and got off the bus b/c we were the last two on the route.)
The next day, I heard him tell his friends I'D kissed HIM, and was saying how "grossed-out" he was and all that. I apologized to him about it later and he just said "Oh, no that was some other girl and it happened a couple days ago" (which I didn't believe considering after he'd told them, one of the friends looked over at me and started laughing). So I'm wondering: Why would he do this? I don't think he actually minded (HE leaned in) but I'm not exactly the most popular girl at school. Do you think maybe he was lying to those guys to protect his reputation, but at the same time kind of bragging about it?

It is highly probable. I think he may not be worth being upset about though. It shouldn't matter about popularity (I know in many places it does but is shouldn't). Regardless, his behaviour was bad and wrong (with what he said to his friends).

I can see how and why you feel hurt. When I was in school if that happened to me it would have hurt me too.

Why did you say sorry to him when he kissed you?

Anyways, I hope you feel better soon.

That is a smart way of dealing with it, I wouldn't have thought of doing that when I was at school.

It would seem to me that he doesn't deserve you feeling hurt over him. Please don't let it get you down, I know I would have felt bad after something like this when at school but looking back over the years I can see I could have saved myself a lot of pain by realising my peers were immature and insecure, and were using my insecurity as a means to bolster theirs.

A thing that helps me now if someone is rude (and it gets me down) is to think of or write down as many good things about myself as I can. This helps me realise that their rudeness has often very little to do with me and lots to do with them and where they're at mentally. It's hard to do the first few times but it works for many people. Might be worth a try for you.

Can I offer an adult perspective? If you are an aspie or otherwise an outsider, it's easy to forget that other people also feel insecure; you were probably caught in a train-wreck of insecurity that had little or nothing to do with you. I am guessing from the other perspective it went something like this: The boy probably likes you and acted on impluse. Nothing gets people talking like a public display of affection: other kids were probably relentless in their teasing (either that, or he's already had painful experience with their teasing and was being proactive.) He came up with a story to get them to leave him alone...and, unfortunately, it involved a lie at your expense.

This is not to say that you should tolerate the lie. I think you handled it as best you could - keeping it between the two of you was a good call. Next time, instead of "I'm sorry" you could be more direct and say something like "I don't like the things I'm hearing people say about me." If things don't get better quickly, please see a school counselor and explain what happened.

I am so sorry this happened to you. Be good to yourself: you sound like a very nice, intelligent young woman who deserves better treatment.