imaginary friends. but with a twist.

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im not autistic or anything..but i typed in google and it came up with that other topic, so i joined because it was the only place i'd seen people talk about this stuff..i hope thats ok =S

So i know someone already has a pretty similar topic up at the moment.
but i think my issue differs a bit.

i spend most of my time with imaginary "friends".
and until reading that other topic, thought i was in a minority.
i do the thing where its like a real person, or an actor or whatever, but there not really there. i just pretend they are.
i have depression. i think i do it for some kind of comfort or something.
i stopped for years. or at least it was less intense for years.
i used to do it really badly when i was like 13, with this guy i adore in a show(all saints, its an aussie show) i used to watch. i'd imagine him with me all the time, but not just in a crush kind of way. like i'd just talk to him about whatever.
then it went away. but when i was like 14, it came back again but with different people.
thing is, they started off as friends in my head [they were actually my sisters friends in real life]
but kind of turned "evil" and started telling me to do bad stuff to myself after a while..
and again, eventually that went away.
but just recently, well actually, i was channel surfing and found re-runs of all saints.
automatically i put it on record for every week to come.
within a month i had 4 seasons of it on dvd, there goes $200.
i was in a relationship at the time and it even caused problems there.
because the guy i liked from the show was back in my head. worse than ever.
but the thing is. in this "other world" as i call it. i do the things im too scared to do in reality.
it's weird. and it feels alot more intense than it used to be. i dont know if thats just because im older now..or something.
ugh. its frustrating. thing is , i love it.
but i worry about it because im obsessed with my "other world" but at the same time, i know its unhealthy. and bizarre.
i know its partly because im depressed and lonely. im not close to my family at all.
i just don't know what to do. i feel like i'm losing it.

I think I get what your saying. I do the same thing too but it happens more like a daydream were I just zone out. Depending on what goes on in your head your thoughts could be used as ideas to write stories. Character from an already existing show? Fanfiction could be the answer there, or make a character based off of them. If you chose the path of writing it could work out with the person in your imagination helping you write about their adventures! Getting your imagination helps put your imagination into a structured form and will make it slightly more tame when you're trying to stay in the real world. I myself am trying to write a story about events in my imagination and time I've sent daydreaming is now writing. I hope this gives you some way of controlling your imagination from grasping your mind completely.