Any self harmers in here? How and why? (trigger for SHers)

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I'm just curious as to see people's answers, as I don't know all too many people who self harm, and none who aren't cutters like I am (I'm a scratcher, biter, picking, and puncher, but not a cutter.)
I'll add a bit of my experiences later, when it's not 4:44 am here.

i'm an ex self harmer, i used to cut, punch, and i touched irritated wounds.

i did it because i fell i wasn't worth living, thanks to having OCD violent images were piling up inside my head, showing me nothing but self destruction, thus self destruction it was, i was depressed, and had low self esteem, was insecure and wanted to die.

Yes, I am or have been. I have some bad scars on my arm as attempted suicide - I hope they fade.

I did once, 5 long cuts with scissors on my left arm, 3 are still there to see (indeed a psych immedately asked "what are those ?" the first time I saw him) quite drunk, my ex girlfriend said she didn't want me around anymore and I just lost my mind. She didn't leave me then....only one year later

alright
*cracks fingers*
lesse....
i used to cut... at least 2-5 times a day...
i've had 12 suicide attempts.. only got caught and sent to hospital once... all failed... -.-
i dont anymiore.. but i used to self harm.. sometimes for fun.. O_O

i'm masochist... or so my friend says...

I have been admitted into hospital when I was a child because i was always taking overdoses (for awhile) and they put the heart monitors on etc.
I don't remember alot.
I don't think it was to kill myself. Though I know I didnt really care if I did die. It was more I wanted to be so out of it and not in reality anymore.

used to. stopping was the most difficult thing I've ever done. but I've received help for my depression now so I don't feel the need to most of the time.

see this link for my and others thoughts on the matter

http://www.wrongplanet.net/postp1980648 ... t=#1980648

But generally I don't think it's a very good idea. I know it's hard when you get that urge but there has to be a more constructive way to deal with those feelings.

I am a cutter, I hit myself constantly (don't know if that counts), and I occasionally hit my head against the wall. There are reasons why I cut, I don't do it for fun or for suicide (only one minor attempt). Right now the reason is that there is a bomb in my neck, chips and nanobots in my arms and everywhere in my body so the gov can control me, that is why. I know to the outsider they will have problems understanding, but it is to save myself and millions of others. I went to the hospital a few days ago and they responded, "your cut wasn't deep enough and you read the DSM IV." That is why I wasn't admitted. I am never going back to those liar scum people at that hospital. Last time I was there when I was suicidal, there were bullies that called me names and I broke down in tears (I hardly ever cry, I don't even cry when I am depressed!) and their doctors are liar scum people as well. They lied to my face. They told me that I was truly suffering and that I had an illness. But when I picked up the report, it basically ACCUSED me of making everything up. The stupid report said, "the patient is highly suggestible and reads things on the Internet about mental disorders, therefore that is why she has gotten so many diagnoses." Something to that effect. So, my Internet (according to these no good jerks that deserved to be sued or fired) emits special brain rays to change the chemistry in my brain! Now who is the delusional one? I know that SOME people when they read the DSM or similar book, they say "hey, that sounds like me!" but they don't suddenly develop the symptoms from reading a book or the Internet. It all started awhile back when I would jerk out of the blue. It then developed into full blown "seizures." It turned out to be conversion disorder and not epilepsy. I never read about conversion disorder until AFTER I developed these symptoms and that is what the doctor said it was. I hope someone sues the docs at that hospital. What if someone said they were suicidal and they said, "we can't accept you." Then he or she commits suicide that night. The parents deserve to sue at that point.

Never have, but about a year ago I was depressed severely enough to want to cut. Luckily for me, I have other healthy ways of coping with life's problems and managed to mentally power through my sorrow; otherwise I very well might have harmed myself.

My brother is a chronic picker.

My daughter wouldnt stop picking her nose in Kindergarten. It was a nervous thing I was told - her first year of school.

I punch poke and hit myself on a regular basis.

I often punch myself during meltdowns, but aside from that i have no self harm problems

i tried cutting once, i just took a razor to my leg, but it didn't really do much for me so i haven't intentionally cut myself since. self harm really doesn't make me feel anything (other than maybe a bit of pain)

I don't feel pain eithier I can totally blank it out. Even when I was stabbed with a knife and had to get alot of stitches. I felt no pain. I didn't even realised I had been stabbed until I seen the blood.

I'm a self-harmer. I've been doing it for a couple of years now. I've got about 300 scars on each arm and this huge scar on my left wrist from when I cut REALLY deep and hit a vein. I've just recently started burning myself with a lighter. I haven't self-harmed in about a month now, so I'm quite proud of that.

I hate the scars though. But then again, I guess they are there to show me (and to show other people) that I had a bad time and found a way of coping with it.

I don't know why I do it. I mean, obviously, it's a very bad coping mechanism and I need to find another way of coping but at the moment... it is all I have. Self-harm and my eating disorder. I want to stop self-harming, but I don't at the same time.

Damn, I'm confused now.