I want to die.

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I see much point in living, I'm so sick of this life. I can't anyone to love me at all and it is all thanks my aweful looks and this curse. I hate being hear and I'm so sick of seeing couples around me. I'm tired of being a [edited for content by sinsbodly] virgin (sorry if that is offensive), I don't see why I am alive to endure this living hell. The only thing I have is my brain, but I don't see it as enough to live. I look sort of like a banana to some extent, my ass sticks out and makes me look fat. My fat falls to my calfs and ass. I hate walking by my reflection, I feel really depressed and so tired of being single. I hate it when people look at me the way they do. I don't ever get a break. I just watched that invented lie movie and I couldn't finish. I walked out when the girl the protagonist was after started dating a guy based solely on his looks. I felt like real crap and just left. I couldn't stand it. I'm so tired. I don't know if any amount of exercise will ever make me the way I would like to look. What is really depressing is their are many people who worse off than me and they still get a girls. Me? I've attracted the attention of one of the mentally handicapped and I just can't feel any attraction towards her. I hate a lot of people. I hate stephenie Meyer her garbage called twilight, I hate the superficial piece of trash that it is and I am depressed by the simple fact that I always be alone. A evolutionary dead end. I beg god either to end my life now or at least give me one miracle. Just one. I am tired of people me that there is someone around the corner. There isn't. I hate them so much for saying such lies. My therpist or whatever you want to him is useless and he tells me the same thing. I've never had a proper relationship with the opposite sex and I'm sick to death of being forced to be single with no choice. I hate my life and I want to die so much. I am sending this out, for some desperate hope that someone or something will happen to turn this around.

whenever i'm feeling down i just go here: http://www.postsecretcommunity.com/
http://www.postsecretcommunity.com/chat ... hp?t=95776

i hate all the of mainstream media crap as well. i was forced to go see twilight and nearly fell asleep while watching it. it's all just a stupid fad. i rarely go to the movies and don't watch a lot of television. 'ell, i don't even listen to the radio(except for national public radio and a awesome local radio station). i'm not sure if this helps. i hope it does.

I hope that my response doesn't irritate you. I will pray that you get a miracle. I'm so sorry that you feel so bad about yourself. I'm a twilight fan probably because of my age and it reminds me of my BS fantasies from high school, but I understand why you hate the shallowness of it. My boyfriend is overweight but he accepts me unconditionally and that's why I love him. There might be a girl like that out in the world for you. Just keep trying and don't stop being nice to the girls you are attracted to. There might be one who will appreciate it. You're not alone, even if there is no one to hold you right now....

P.S. Men really shouldn't watch Twilight anymore than I should be looking to playboy for self affirmation....

I hear you there mate/bud.

I gave up on "love" years ago after my wife passed away,
she was "mentally handicapped" but I know she was
smarter than alot of people gaver her credit for.

Damm sorry I should not have gone into that I hope
I did not disgust you with stupid mush bullkrap.

Love is over-rated and full of poop and the next person
to try and tell me I should be married is getting a loogie
in his eye.

I scream at those people "THERE IS NO ONE OUT THERE
FOR ME SO CHILL THE FROG OUT!! !!"

I know there isn't, she does not exist on this plane of
reality, only in a parallel dimension that I visit from
time to time to forget the horse stool in this one, I wish
I could just go live in the next dimension and stay
there forever with Big Debbie, I'd never leave.

But stupid physics and whatever horse krap always
beings me back to this waste pit dump of a reality
so I kick it in the buttcrack and curse this reality
every time it does this tome.

I just went back to being a little boy, I dress in my
Pooh and Tigger overalls, I play in my playroom
between editing videos that I do for pocket money.

I'm never going to grow up and I won't even try
anymore, I tried being a growedup and all it got
me was abuse and trouble, and I guess according
to "society" I "cannot handle" it.

Dating, Love and all that horse stool can kiss my
bum and eat a big poop because it is all rubbish.

I'm never growing up and I'm never getting married
or anything like it.

I'm staying little.

I'm suicidal fairly often as well for similar reasons, but this site has helped me out a lot. I want to be more like these people here:
http://www.givesmehope.com/

I am not a fan of facebook or Twilight either.

I hope things get better for you.

Maybe if you take a class of somekind you can meet some nice people. that like you for you,

I totally feel your pain KarmaGrey. I wish I wasn't alone either. If you ever want to drop a pm, be my guest.

I hope things get better for you.

I went through the same thing in high school. I didn't like the popular things and my peers gave me a hard time, about it. I wanted to die, at your age. Now that I've been out of school for over 15 years, none of that matters, anymore. It will get better. Just think that in a few years, you will be out of that prison, and living a free life.

I hope that things get better for you.

An update on the situation, I have taken the time to cut a fair proportion of people out of my life as I have come to realise these people aren't real friends. They're ones act sympathetic to stroke their nobility egos but in all hindsight they simply fakes, liars and hipocrits. I am on the road to savalation I guess and in the next year heading to med school. Most these people are from my highschool and claim to be christian but I find their body language to very contradicting to the words. Yeah I know, aspergers have trouble with that kind of language but with me I never did. Not sure why. Anyway I can tell if they're lying or not or simply trying to make themselves seem more noble. Nothing against religion just the fakes that give it a bad name. I am lot happier now and working on the next stage as we speak. Ugh makes sound like a psycho villian about set a trap lol.