words that hurt the most

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I think klutzy is such a cute word, personally.... I guess it makes me think of cute, silly people. I guess hearing it over and over wouldn't be very fun, though.

I tend to avoid most people, but I don't think anything would affect me. If anyone would say anything to me, my piercing look that would follow would scare the shìt out of them. Then they'd maybe call me a psycho. Then I'd smile with my psycho smile, haha....

Considering that my result of an official IQ test was 152, I really don't appreciate being called "ret*d" or "insane"..

My by far worst bullying experience was by a group of girls who at some point got fed up with me being too different and at first attacked me by locking me to a small room for two hours and having them constantly shouting at me with names "ret*d", "insane","sick","psychopath" etc. They would also speak about my experience as a rape victim, repeating that I made it happen by myself, because I'm stupid, it would never happen to them because they are smarter and are able to take care of themselves, that I would deserve it all happen again all over again and that I was worthless piece of **** who didn't deserve to live. They also made up all sorts of utterly absurd things they could possibly make up annoy me even more, things that I "probably" do and think because I'm such a "psychopath", such as wanting to get all of them raped and what if they went to the police and told I was some sort of a criminal just to get rid of me. They refused to let me out of the room within these two hours. At some point I got a complete meltdown.. It was far too much sounds, stimuli and utter illogic I can't stand, and they had a very big laugh about that, being encouraged to mock me even more.

Later this same group would e.g. tell my local best friend that I had, for some unexplained reason, told these girls that he had raped me among all sorts of absurd lies. To the other students they started very relentlessly claiming that since I am so strange, I'm actually "some sort of psycho" who wants to get all the students beaten up and killed and that I had actually threatened them.

That really hurt.. In reality I do and have done for years a lot of charity work for different organizations and am very anti-violence and VERY much against any kind of abusage of women. I'm not really interested in groups, but I can't see why it should annoy a person that much that I spend much time alone.

It's impossible for me to understand this kind of behaviour.. For one of these girls, I had arranged a surprise birthday party, other one I had been helping out when she fell on her face drunk and broke her nose, other few I also had been helping out on a drunken night out when nobody around did. I'm aware they had major issues with basically anything that was slightly different from their preferances and I'm aware certainly wasn't their only victim.. I remember especially one other loner girl having had her share before me and she is still crushed because of it. I apparantly confirmed these girls as my enemies on the day I went to openly support and defend this girl rather than joining their "mission".

Actually, this reaction would just be one of my personalities. I have come to the conclusion, over recent years, that I have multiple personality "disorder". Not the kind when you don't remember what one or more of the personalities has done or thought, but the kind where you will remember everything, in a completely regular way.

In my case, it isn't any sort of disorder, though. It's rather just a sort of personality. I love it, but at times I get a bit confused with what view I should value the most...

My Dad: "Something wrong with you"

I don't love or like him so it shouldn't hurt but it does

i see things in the rule of thirds, in that of humanity, one third are good, one third are indifferent/undecided, and one third are actively evil and ever busy at converting the indifferent/undecided one third to their evil cause. the evil one third convert the undecided to their darkness by spreading hate and confusion and despair, hurting other people in their weak spots repeatedly until they succumb to despair and fall to the dark side. the good third are battling with the evil third for the souls of the indifferent third, and they try their best to counteract the damage of the evil third, but the evil side is many times stronger than the good, and always has the upper hand and the superior numbers on their side. on earth, evil is just so superficially sexy, and always has better PR. just my 2 cents' worth, not adjusted for inflation.

The worst would be creeper, stalker, and serial killer, just because the are so degrading and so far from the truth. I hate being called those, but the other stuff I can usually roll off. Now at 26, I don't really get called many of those words, except for a few cases. But each time, the people that usually call me those words are bad people, so it doesn't matter. My former boss used to call me stupid and said I knew nothing, which hurt too, and made me constantly try to disprove that, but that would make it worse. He'd never trust me with doing things I was more than capable of doing.

I'm a good person, I try to be the very best person I can be, I try to live my Christian faith to the best I can, and try to see the best in people. This is why it hurts so much when people speak negatively about me, because it's just not true.

Annoying.

The last time I had people I considered best friends was back in high school. One said to me that she and my other friends didn't like hanging out with me because I was annoying. It's probably not what she said exactly but that word haunts me all these years later. I honestly won't try and makes friends IRL because that scene flashes into my mind and I end up obsessing over it. I won't even let my husband use that word to describe another person.

I also hate the word "babe". It's what my step-father calls my mother all the time. I think it sounds degrading rather than affectionate.

"What the **** is wrong with you"- parents first words to me today, right after they got out of bed.

"You're a creep (insert name) "- Same parent, different time.

It seems a lot of us have some of the same words. I wonder why that is...

I hate it when people say anything about me, even if it is something good.

I was taken aback when someone asked if I was a little slow.

As for specific words, I would echo "creeper" or any variation of that.

This is my first non- "hi-I'm-new" post. I just found out about my diagnosis. Lately the most painful words are "nasty" (as in, I say nasty, mean things to people) and "tactless." Just a simple "weird" always hurts too.

Even worse is when you hear of your friends talking about you. In that case, the words aren't directed at you, but rather an entire conversation of speculation occurs, with you and your "oddness" at the center.

I'm so glad I found this site