I am sick of having nightmares, especially the ones where I try to kill myself because I actually feel like I'm dying when I wake up. I still get compulsive thoughts about dying/being hurt. It's emotionally taxing and makes me feel exhausted.
It's really annoying because I'm starting to recover from depression, otherwise. I think my meds might be making it worse but I'm worried about coming off them. I think I'll make an appointment with my doctor in a month's time and tell I want to cut down by just 10mg, and see how that goes. If it's not the meds (I was like this before I went on them, tbh) I don't know what to do. I think therapy would help, but I wish they'd hurry up with the bloody ridiculous waiting list.
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Zombies, zombies will tear us apart...again.