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I wish life wasn't such a f*****g uphill struggle with - in my opinion - absolutely no reward at the end of it. I try to be a good guy, try to please people who are supposed to be my friends, and they still don't respect me. They rarely bother to return any favours, just leech and leech until I'm nothing more than a shrivelled, dried-out husk. Why am I such a f*****g joke to most people? Why does everyone assume I'm an absolute moron just because I'm not some sort of master of sociality? Since when did intelligence and being social become the same thing? Why do nearly all jobs insist on employees who are "bubbly" and outgoing? What the hell are the introverts supposed to do then?

What's up with my ability to feel bad about any memory, even the good ones?

Sometimes I think that there are people wishing me harm, but then I realize that they probably don't think about me at all. I don't even know which I consider worse.

I've been having a lot of distress about working as a person with ASD (and embracing it) in an environment where people are constantly trying to correct ASD traits. I have no problem with them improving people's quality of life, but I think they often do it in a way that is not respectful to the individual and their way of thinking/processing.

I cannot read anything about "cure" or "normalizing people" anymore. It's grating on my nerves, almost like witnessing someone getting hurt. I had a therapy session and feel better now, but I am distancing myself from everything suggesting the above and only taking in what I actually need to take in as part of my professional commitment.

Like:
Swimming alone/nearly alone late at night in a quiet, empty swimming pool.
Dislike:
Swimming in the bright sun around twenty other people all screeching and splashing and throwing things and accidentally hitting me ("He did it!" is not an apology...)

I love water. It calms me. But not in most situations where I encounter it.

People ruin the peace and my attitude.

WHAT IN THE WORLD made you think it was a good idea to put a bag of garbage out on your balcony, in the middle of a heat wave, and then leave for a few days of vacation?! !? The magpies had a feast on the half-rotten meat that was spread all over the place. And the flies....Oh god the flies.

I wonder if you were just to lazy to walk 2 times to carry all your stuff and just left me to deal with the mess.

I wouldn't have much to dislike about you if it wasn't for your stupid, constantly annoying inferiority complex.

I'm so f*****g annoyed with people I know constantly trying to control me and shape my personality to their personal preferences. They pretend to me and theirselves that they're trying to helping me, but they're actually killing me. All they want to do is have some sort of control over me.
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT

OhfuckohfuckohfuckohfuckohFUCK

I am so sick and goddamned tired of having to take care of my mother. I just want my life to be over, the quicker, the better.

I hate racism. I hate racist people. I hate them all.

And...

STOP shaming my every coping mechanism with your cancerous lies. It's like yanking out the wheelchair or crutches from a disabled person. You're only making things worse for me. Let me live my own life; I'm not harming anyone. YOU, on the other hand, ARE.

I'm very tired of living in this NT world. I wish I would go to sleep and never wake up.

It's all churchy stuff, all the time around here. I can dig that its important to y'all, but it seems like you have nothing else in your lives. The omnipresence has started to seriously get on my nerves.

I'm so sick of myself and other like-minded members constantly being judged on here by people who think just because they feel a certain way, everyone else should or they're pathetic. I get judged all the time IRL and I get judged all the time on here. f**k life, I'm sick of it

I really dislike rude.stupid, ugly, stinky Wal Mart customers.