Sara Is Gone, Guys! My Heart Is Crushed! :(

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No. Not dead. Just, gone. My former, lovely, Latino key worker, whom I love and miss.

I think she felt threatened by you. Even if you didn't mean it.

Will you have another key worker?

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No.

The same Sara you're supposed to not be in contact with? I am confused had the impression aside from your attempts to keep contacting her and that other woman they were both largely out of your life as in not talking to you and even having legal action to prevent you contacting them.

So you mean she's gone as in moved somewhere very far away you don't know the whereabouts of, so now there is no way you can contact her? If so might be better to see it as a blessing of sorts, least it means no more trouble for you on account attempting to contact her again.

Yeah. She left. Sara left Autism Initiatives in August. So that effectively means all of this shite was for NOTHING!

It always was all for nothing.

I understand how obsessive resentments can work. I understand how much it hurts when one is slighted. I understand how easy it is to blame others for my own actions, and how much easier it is to look at the splinter in another's eye before caring about the plank in my own.

I feel a lot of pain reading your posts, because I know that you can work on saving yourself in the same ways I am working on saving myself. I understand that owning one's own actions can be the scariest thing a man can do.

But, dude, you have to stop f*****g being a victim and own your own s**t.

Trust me, you will be a lot happier if you take that difficult step seriously.

I still feel terrible. I think I will always miss her. Even if I get supported housing elsewhere, I will take the housing part but leave out the support. I shall never trust these type of caregivers again. Who would?

I wonder if she felt so threatened by you that she had to leave her job.

Check out my latest post in the other thread.

I beg your pardon.

She left, for real and true, man. She told me in 2013 she was hoping to go to Latin America in a few years so it's 2015 now, and the past 18 months has been a drag. I still need to be arrested too, hopefully for the last freaking time too.

What the hell would you know about me and women? **** all, that's what. You didn't get lied to shedloads of times and go to jail - I did.

OK. I was a jackass and I sent some inappropriate emails, that I got justly punished for. It scared them and I should have known better, but I was really feeling very upset and it was my anger that made me do that.

I'm not a supporter of racism or sexual harassment against care providers, and yes, maybe I was viewing women as sex objects for a while. Guess the buggery with these cheap hookers and their tight arses was a bit too much fun. Sorry if that sounds crass. But I know I'm capable of loving a woman, for real. It is just that I cannot get a girlfriend because I am unsure of where to look for one.

All I wanted was a chance with these two support workers, to do better, but they no longer wanted to know me. It was not right that the staff belatedly confessed that the lying was wrong, considering how much I begged prior to being remanded in custody. Their excuses are also pretty lame and well thought out too. Once the court got involved and the court had my number, they made out it was too late, like it were all my fault, when it was just as much theirs.

Anyway, add up all the Internet crap and the crap with my ex, Laura, then tell me I don't have a right to be wary of deception. The fact that this autism agency went down the same road as them made me realize that no-one can be trusted in life. Sometimes, it takes a real stinger like this scenario you see before you to get that all important wake-up call.