See New York City ~ and die ?

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That's good. So you're not getting dialysis.

...Some points about what the " going to NYC " might entail .
I am from Westchester County , to the north , not NYC proper , and my brother's group home is at the upper end there .
If I got to the area , I would of course be getting off the bus/plane in NYC ~ If I did that , homeless , I suppose I would be HL in NYC - not Westchester County , and not Chappaqua , where I lived 6-18 , considering it " my home town " .
You know who lives there now , right ?
II really think trying to be homeless there now - what , with all the SS agents there now ? Hardly .
Then again , maybe I should ?
My visiting my brother might be along the lines of several different , on different days , that-day visits ~ sort of " divorced dad " visits . Ironically .
Going there and seeing my brother and leaving him the same day .
There's n onehere to stay with and I certainly cannot stay with him at hius GH . That is not do-able .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Sounds like a good plan, except that you'd probably be stuck there.
I always picture the west coast as warmer. More habitable.

♫ ♪ ♫ I'm going where the sun keeps shining, Thru' the pouring rain'
Going where the weather suits my clothes ♫ ♪ ♫

...First paragraph: Yes , possibly .
Unless , maybe , I was not terminal and , after a while , SS in NY contacted SF and they understood it a both a needed thing to do and , on the whole " Housing Now "/" taking care of the biggest expenses first " theory , it put me on a bit of a faster track for housing back in SF ?
I have thought that , if I was in " a place " here, it would make seeing him difficult , so , before it happens ~ But , to be frank , I sort of think I'm not that high up/may have a bit of a ~ partial , perhaps ~ ace of spades against me with SF social services .
Also , another steram that (I suppose is) aprat from the " getting me a private SRO/ " or whatever stream is one where the more autism-oriented services in SF are brought in ~ Good ?
Well , I am tended to think that such a placement would be being in some group home , with a roomate and bedtimes ~ Not what I want . At 56 . And doubtful?? health .
Maybe it's the ol' " Live free or die " after all .
Though , granted , such a situation might allow me access to more " stuff " than a strictly on my own situation might allow , use of a DVD player , say , and I am the one who's occasionally mused about " If I was like my idea of latter-day Aspies , more or less comfortably in a semi-independent , somewhat ' being taken care of ' situation "...I dunno .
Second paragraph ~ Fred Neil was from Florida , and I've seen it pointed out that that's Florida's (his part , I guess) weather ~ I guess that fitting by co-inkydink?? (since the song predated the movie) in with Midnight Cowboy's plot element of (SPOILER) Dustin Hoffman wanting to see Miami before he dies ~ and , ulp , only succeeding inasfar as he gets to see the towers from a distance before he kicks ~ Uh , coughs to death ~ Uh , my natural pessimist tendency has wondered if my condition coulld be worse than the more optimistic version than the 2nd doctor , in the most recent hospital stay , told ~ And , just now , a casual meeting with one of " my keepers " where he suggested deeper tests for my still-persistent coughing - which I want - makes , however , me deeper wonder if , in fact , I have worse medical happenings waiting ~ could be dying ..........

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

New York is a very nasty place to be homeless.

SF is probably much better.

...Yeah , true , but (combination) ~
I really have not seen my brother in eighteen and a half years ! If I don't arrange it , WHO ?
Okay , either I - MAY _ be terminal , or ,a nyway , maybe I'm on the precipice of a fairly serious " my health goes downhill " , even if I survive ~ Perhaps (one might would hope) this would lead to a place , but , again , once I have one~ How could I , on an " ex-homelss place " (all I'm certainly likely to immedaitely , at the very leasthave ~ AT BEST) visit East ?
Okay , on a certain level , if I'm starting to get old ~ Maybe I want to be " romantically homeless " one more time ?
Okay , that has been a little bit of a factor before me being HL again before . " Material for that back of the book jacket/PR release " .
Of course , as far as busking goes , I'm afriad that these coughs may f**k up my voice...
If I am terminal - or -ish - I do - I guess - want to see my brother .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Didn't you say there was an organization that might get you a more permanent home because of your diagnosis?

If so, I would wait it out, then go to NYC to visit your brother.

...It's more " hoping there is " , and , really , if I do get a place ~ How can I then afford to/not lose it if I go East ?
I rather doubt I could then leave the place behind and go East , and have it waiting for me when I get back .
I did say , too , remember , say I think I might have an " ace of spaces " (" black mark " is racist/a microaggression ! !! !! !! !!) agin me w/those sorta folk ~ That was seperate from what I said regarding connecting with any specifically autism-oriented services here , which again repeating myself , might entail be4ing in a group home I assume .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...As I said in my " Gaining weight " post , I now rather doubt more that SF SServices can/will get me a place anyway ...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!