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07 Jan 2025, 7:05 pm

The phrase “indulging in intoxicants” in this thread seems a bit dismissive, no?

When I’m in the midst of a panic attack and take a prescribed benzo (when I have them), it doesn’t really feel like indulging. It’s just helping me get through it. I don’t think I’ll ever reach a point where I don’t get panic attacks because the root cause isn’t resolvable. It just is.



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07 Jan 2025, 7:09 pm

TwilightPrincess wrote:
The phrase “indulging in intoxicants” in this thread seems a bit dismissive, no?


No, it seems like a synonym for consuming intoxicants.


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07 Jan 2025, 7:55 pm

Since indulgence is specifically related to enjoyment, is it really applicable to Alprazolam?
Not one of my list of recreational substances.
I don't even include benzodiazepines in there, mind you, few of my recreational list actually give pleasure any more. I usually take them for specific effects these days, and enjoyment isn't one of them. (Well....with the possible exception of DNRIs like cocaine. Don't judge! My bupropion is prescribed)



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07 Jan 2025, 8:02 pm

I don’t enjoy taking benzos, but they do help me with severe anxiety and panic attacks. I don’t take them that often, but it’s nice to know they’re an option. Panic for me can last for hours. It’s not always a problem, but rough patches are extremely unpleasant.

Of course, I guess some people DO take them for enjoyment.



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07 Jan 2025, 8:24 pm

I hate the human race, I hate this planet and I hate myself. I can't continue living in a world full of greed and violence and stupidity and a fat orange lunatic wants to annex the country I live in. I wish I could just die. There's going to be another pandemic anyway, and I'm not going through that hell again.



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07 Jan 2025, 9:35 pm

I had a dream about a failed romantic pursuit from years ago. Then when I was eating lunch today, I heard *two* songs that reminded me of her.

I felt the sting of the rejection all over again.


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12 Jan 2025, 9:21 pm

The housing market in my city is pretty hopeless for first time homebuyers and has been for a while. It's depressing that I'm probably going to have to choose between either renting for the rest of my adult life and or moving to a more affordable area, since "a more affordable area" would probably need to be a rural and politically conservative area.



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12 Jan 2025, 9:49 pm

^ That sounds like a difficult dilemma, and I can relate in a way. My area is affordable although the price of houses has risen in recent years, but it’s also very conservative and not my cup of tea. I’m wondering what it’ll look like over the next few years. It just feels like a lot of things are up in the air right now.



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13 Jan 2025, 6:55 pm

I kind of hate when people say "Oh, you can't complain now. Life gets so much worse"

Dude. Come on. Now I'm gonna have just a whole bunch of intrusive thoughts and conversations with myself about how to find enjoyment in my life. I'm gonna sit here and stress about maximising everything which is going to drive me up the damn wall in overthinking.

Respectfully, shut up. I know aging has its challenges but there are reasons people choose to continue living. There are good parts to life and while I would never condone toxic positivity, sometimes I wish I could just say - mate, I am not in the right headspace to hear this viewpoint. I can't 'enjoy my age' if you're stressing me out with the possibility of being miserable in my future. I mean maybe I will be but there's no point worrying about something that is yet to be (or may never be).

Just, leave me be. Let me approach things one day at a time and stop giving me a crisis.


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20 Jan 2025, 11:24 pm

Something is bothering me, but I can’t talk about it. It’s not about WP. It’s just one of those things that’s too much. It sort of helps saying that.



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21 Jan 2025, 5:18 pm

^ That's OK.

I'm going through a weird time, personally. There's been some really awful things that have happened in my life recently but there's also been a lot of very positive things. The fact that these events have all happened during the same relative span of time in a big mess of I don't even know what, I don't really know where I am, emotionally.

Certainly couldn't put it into words on here in any comprehensible way. Not right now. I'm OK but a little...hmm...I don’t know. :tired: :shrug:


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22 Jan 2025, 3:31 pm

Yeah some things you just came express in writing or talking because it's just too much and too messy but I reckon if you give yourself a bit of time then it might get easier to sort out in your own head


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23 Jan 2025, 7:47 pm

It’s the sort of thing that I have a vague idea of and that research could help me sort out, maybe, but the research would likely be too upsetting so maybe I should try to let it go. Then again, it’s not the sort of thing I can let go.

The way difficult situations are portrayed on TV are typically very vague, which I’m sure is for the best, but then when you deal with them, it’s so often the details that are the most striking. Well, it’s often that way for me anyway.



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24 Jan 2025, 12:27 pm

I think most people I knew from my old life died before they were 50 years old


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24 Jan 2025, 12:35 pm

It would be nice if I could arrange to just not exist between the last day of October and the first day of February. For getting on 10 years now, all I ever get from this part of the year is misery.


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24 Jan 2025, 1:35 pm

^ I feel the same way.