It's funny how I constantly lament what has since passed me by, and now that I've returned to this site I find this topic waiting for me. Almost like I was meant to find it.
I struggle with this a LOT. I find myself missing the days when I was younger, how exciting the world seemed; all of the advancement in tech, the cool cartoons and anime, the video games that just seemed to be constantly improving in terms of graphics, gameplay and scope with each generation, the television shows and movies that all added new beats to the human experience and the culture of a country, the idea that one could become successful if they worked hard enough... I really do miss that feeling and how the world was.
It just hurts to know that it's all been one big, carefully constructed lie by a bunch of powerful cultists at the top seeking to destroy all of us, and it's been like that even before it became obvious that it was always fake and that was always the plan.
And yet despite ALL of that, I still wish I could go back and experience that world again. The world we've left behind as we entered a world engineered to spiral out of control and demoralize everyone. I want to remember some of the things I've since lost, because even though I know my childhood wasn't always the happiest one, I still cherish it because I grew up with parents who loved me and I was in relative security for most of my younger years. I want to enjoy the world as it once was; a time of hope for the future, a time of excitement, a time of experimentation, a time of progress...
Because I hate what the world is becoming. And I so dearly wish I could change it from what it is right now. 