Fear of help; self-sabotage

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I can see what I'm doing but can't stop it. I'm procrastinating, in a very busy way. That's something I learned years ago. Don't sit there and do nothing! So I do something - something else. Something that does not need attention but is generally useful. So I still get to be afraid and don't face the problem.

Today's problem should be simple: a cleaner will come tomorrow morning for 3 hours. Simple? Of course not. I have to clean up for the cleaner. I have to organize things - sort my wash, for example. And what did I do last night? Put up my books for sale on Craigslist. Useful, yes, but off the mark totally. Also, that made a pile of books that I have to put somewhere. So the mess is worse.

Even as I write this, what else am I doing? Eating. I have managed baby steps towards tidying up but ... I can't even finish this sentence.

At least you’re creating revenue for yourself, which is a very smart thing.

I do hope these weren’t books you love, though.

I know what you mean, though. I’m a great procrastinator, too.

But I am sure you will get the tidying up done later in the day, after, perhaps, a nap.

procrastination is a way to go xd I MEAN, if u need a helper, its because doing that stuff is hard for u, no? and at that they demand u to still do it urself, whats the point then?
and ya, i also procrastinate a lot. low energy, ya. tho according to my family im just lazy xD

For the last 2 months I was expected to do bloodwork and I still havent got it done. So I set a date and Im gonna try to accomplish it by that time.

Claradoon, don't be so hard on yourself! I always have to "tidy up" before my housekeeper comes over. And sometimes I don't get it done, and that's OK, too. If you were perfect, you wouldn't need a cleaner because you would have your household running like a fine-tuned Swiss watch. You are getting help because (I'm guessing) you have problems with executive function. But don't stress yourself by blaming!

Yesterday I met with an elder law attorney. I tried to get all my papers together, my numbers on the financial sheet all correct and so on, but I've been overwhelmed with fatigue. I told myself SHE works for ME and I'm only able to do what I'm able to do. So the meeting was not everything it could have been, but it was okay. I'll settle for 80%.

If you hire a helper on a regular basis - mine comes once a week, maybe yours is less often - it has a tendency to get you into a routine, which I find VERY helpful. Autistic people need routines!

EGAD!! ! The cleaning lady's not coming! What kind of e-mail is that to send me at midnight!

now its great that u didnt do extra work that would be wasted)

silver lining)))) gj!)