I have nothing to do in this life

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I know im wasting my time but i dont know what to do.

I sit always in my room, i rarely go outside of home and only for grocery shopping or buying something....
The last time i went out was 3 days ago

Literally i dont have anything, a job or school at the moment.
University starts next year
Living with family
Doctors and therapies didnt work in the past.
I have 0 life energy and i know its obvious in my face. I look desperate.
Im too late for everything.

0 friends 0 girlfriends
Severe social anxiety
Aspergers syndrome ruined my life.

My youth is almost wasted ill be 21 soon.

Can i get back to normal life? I dont know where to start

You sound quite depressed.
IMO 21 is young enough to catch up comfortably but something needs to change, obviously, because you're not happy with how things are now.
I think having a therapist or someone similar to talk things through with might help you move forward more constructively.

Do you have a fear of going out or anxiety? like the other person whom commented said, sounds like you're depressed.

Do you suffer from debilitating illness that prevents you from going out?

Just wondering what you could do, ever thought about taking up voluntary dog walking? going out just to do some photography?

what was the normal life you want to get back to?

for me personally what you described is my normal life and I'm happy enough with it. But I don't really connect with others since i lack the "social chip". i like going for walks though and haven't been getting out much lately.

Try to get professional treatment for agoraphobia, social anxiety and depression. Low self esteem from imagining everyone else thinks you're ugly can mess with your mind. Take small steps to start changing your negative perceptions around.

Never give up. Even an inch of progress, such as the fact that you faced up to the issue and posted here, is a step forward.

Lots of people suffer from agoraphobia to a greater or lesser degree. There are even online resources e.g. mayo clinic that can help.

Some people aren't so bad once you get to know them. Starting to see people as individuals rather than just part of a faceless crowd, goes a long way.

so u are going to university next year, and u live with family so they support u. sorry, that doesnt seem to be ruined life to me. and recluse is a way to go for many of us, as some above me had stated allready (and i +1 that). depression, however, needs attention. when brain chemistry goes sideways, all sort of s**t is felt. but it can be unfucked to more or less success. sometimes needs several attempts tho, before u find what suits u. only way to ultimately lose is, not trying.

Tomorrow i will go out just for walking. I will do nothing but, i get really anxious when someone stares at me. I feel like they hate my existence.

Even some people crossed the road when they saw me, this happened a few times in the past. Im an obsessed person and i can think about this for a week. So i avoid going out usually.

If somebody crosses the road again my morale will go down. Im tired of feeling ashamed

Highly autistic

Sometimes people do not mean to "stare". Or they are just tired and blank gaze. Many times someone told me that I was looking at them the wrong way. But I did not mean it. Maybe they misinterpreted. Not everyone that stares at you, hates your existence. But I'd they do hate your existence, they still have to put up with it.

The world contains seven billion people. Everyone's existence is hated by at least two people.


Someone had the nerve to tell me that "you make people uncomfortable with the way you dress!". (mister redelings 2006 San Diego). (Crossdressing).

The statement is correct. However,

Everyone makes people uncomfortable with the way they dress.

People very seldom cross the road just to avoid someone else.

Sometimes people cross the road because they are on the way to a store or other place of business that's across the road, or they have to cross the road in order to get home.p

It can be easy to imagine the worst in people but the truth is that people who don't know you simply go about their business and are indifferent because they haven't met you, nor hostile.

What country or state do you live in?

You're going to university. You have a potentially excellent future ahead of you.

Going for that walk, like Fireblossom said, would be a great start.