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It happens, Graelwyn. I cannot say this itself has happened to me, but I know it happens. Either his mouth wrote out checks, so to speak, that his arse couldn't cash, or he just decided that manipulating you was fun. Personally, I hope it was the former.

This disturbs me, as this paints a far darker picture of this person than I thought. I say to him, I hope you are ashamed of yourself. You could have spared her feelings earlier and said no. But you continued. Worse, you manipulated her, you gutless wonder. I have lost almost all of my respect for you, and it will take very little for the rest to follow.

Graelwyn, I am so, so sorry. I can't believe anyone would do things like this, or behave that way toward anyone. There is no excuse for it. Even fear on his part is no excuse, as that kind of extreme behavior can only come from a callous heart.

I don't know that there is anything anyone can say that would make you feel better. Do you have anyone you know that you could talk to? In person or on WP? You can message me if you really need to talk, but we don't really know each other, and I don't know that I would be much good for you, or that you would want to talk to me.

Please don't hurt yourself anymore.

I don't know what kind of person would do this, but this will come back to him. And we all have our faults, but very few of us deserve that kind of bulls***, and I can't believe someone who could post something so heartfelt as this could be one who deserves anything like this.

Please find someone to talk to.

I dnt know how to cope with this, it hurts so much

in time the pain will go away
just take each day as it comes
and of cource, occupy yourself with good things
and take care of yourself
I'll be there to help if you need it of course

You will be ok. This will hurt. You might feel betrayed. You might feel like you should have seen this coming. You will think and feel a lot of things, but you will be ok.

You couldn't have seen this coming. That's a thing most people think when people hurt them like he hurt you. I have felt that when I've been hurt. If you trust someone, you trust they won't hurt you. When they do, you feel like you should have known. That's a trap you lay for yourself.

Please believe me. You will get past this. If you need to talk, find someone.

just cant stop crying, so bad i cant breathe properly,
I stupid for believing anyone would ever want me.
these things dont happen.

yes they do-more then you think
if anything your foolish for thinking no one wants you
indeed that is a lie

You are NOT stupid. He didn't want you. That doesn't mean no one will. What he did is on HIM, not on you.

Don't blame yourself. Its his fault.

Cry all you need to, but don't drown. He's not worth it. No one is.

You will come through this, Graelwyn.

I forgive him,I mean, I know his reasoning for it, but it doesnt stop the pain that I imagined this wonderful future that can never be now. I dont know how to get through all of these feelings of pain.

The only way to do this is one breath at a time.

Every breath is you a little closer to the other side of this. All you have to do is breathe. If the pain wells up and gets bad, take a deep breath and let it out slowly. Keep that up, and the pain will recede.

Find it hard to let go once I have come to love someone and see them as the person I belong with.
I very rarely get involved with anyone anyway as I am not good in real life interractions, so this is hard, yes, I keep crying and I have drunk a lot of alcohol.

I always sensed there was something not right etc, but it is still a massive shock, moreso because even with forgiveness, there is no way we can ever be together because of his circumstances.

I know how that feels. I don't really get involved with anyone, and for the same reason. All I can share with you is that your perspective on this may change over time, and you may come to see that he isn't the one you belonged with. It may look like it now, but tomorrow you may see things from a slightly different angle.

Please be careful. Drinking when you're upset can lead to some terrible consequences. I also know how that works.

It will be hard. It will be hard tomorrow, but you will see things and feel things from a slightly different angle. When it hurts bad, breathe through it, and know that it will end. No pain lasts forever, no matter how bad it seems. You will be wounded for a while, but all wounds heal.

I can already see in your posts that you seem ever so slightly better. I hope this is true. I don't know you, but I've been where you are now, and I know what it's like there.

*hug*

*hug*

*hug*

My problem is I have a lot of issues, not just ASD. Also bipolar, OCD and borderline issues.
Which has complicated things.
Call me a fool but I still love him.
I cant just switch that off. I know his reasons... it was a very wrong thing to do. I think it was a case of fearing my reaction if he told me the impossibilities to begin with, and the lie just got deeper and deeper until it could not be undone...and carried on to the point I was expecting him to land in London and be with me on Friday evening.

It is the most painful experience of my life, but I am forgiving and I understand his motives sort of.
It was not done out of malice. I know this.

I will manage, I have been alone for 3 years now anyway, I am sure I can manage another 3.
Thankyou for the support.

I am worn out now from the crying.

Get some rest, then. If you ever need to talk, I will listen.

Tomorrow will be better.

*hugs*

(((((hugs)))))