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They probably wont, but thanks and I hope so as well.

Well I am sick of beating around the bush and am just going to say it bluntly because I'm in an honest mood...If I don't find a job soon I really feel like I should off myself I mean I am just honestly afraid if it actually gets to that point were I've been searching, finally spent the last of the money I do have and am seeing little chance of finding anything I'll take pretty desperate measures. I mean sure people say I'm not a burden but that's probably because I still have a little cash so I can at least kinda pay for my survival........just wait till that's totally gone and I literally cannot contribute to my survival then we'll see how long it takes before people quit insisting I am not a burden.

i was silly i guess

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I am in a similar boat I have no job and prolly won't for a while but that is because of the economy and for me there is always a reason to go on even if I don't see it right away. All I can say is hang in there.

That's the thing i don't even know how to word this........its not like I want to resort to such a thing, I am just worried about how things are going and based on how my mindset already is I'm certainly concerned about resorting to extreme measures. Not just yet.......right now I've been looking for part time jobs and plan to keep doing so but its like that's all I have at the moment is trying to keep going to find something so that I can have income so that I can help myself and possibly friends/family and also have the means to visit friends/family as well as go out and have fun with them. So if I don't find something that puts a damper on any progress in life and I am just not sure I will be able to deal with it. Just sorta wanted to get it off my chest.......but no I am not sitting here about ready to do anything, I am just worried if things don't work out at least a little I will be otherwise I suppose I would give the psych ward thing a go by either telling a friend of family member or calling 911 on myself I guess my family and friends might prefer I try that first.


But I am trying quite hard to do whatever I can.....its just so frustrating and I don't know how much I can take honestly. As for funds I should be alright for now.........I just know I will feel like a burden to everyone when I don't have a single cent to my name but hopefully I'll find a job before then.

You aren't a burden yet since you are paying for yourself instead of society paying for you. Many people are burdens on society and are OK with it. It's your call as to whether you are OK with it.

Have you tried getting a job through some charities? Sometimes they hire adults with problems as part of their charity (I think Goodwill in the US does that).

Yes but I will be when I cannot pay for myself? and as it is its not like i am paying my mom rent to stay at her place or anything...and if she started expecting it I couldn't and that will probably be even after I get a job because all I would be able to handle is part time. Also I think society is a freaking burden on me and other people who are in a similar predicament. But even so its hard not to feel like a burden when you know it's people you care about who are going to be the ones having to help you out and you just don't want to make your problems their problems in any sense but its impossible. I don't really care about society seeing me as any burden as if the society is not equipped to provide for it's people its probably a sick society to begin with.

Also I might consider goodwill but I don't have anything officially diagnosed so I don't think I could get hired on account of anything like that........but maybe they would not have as high expectations as a lot of places so it certainly could be an option.

Family is more likely to carry your burden than society in general (blood is thicker than water). Anyone who does not carry their weight is a burden. Being a burden isn't necessarily a problem unless there is no one to carry it or those that do carry it are resentful. As long as your mom isn't resentful, it's not a problem. She may be disappointed in you, but such is life.

As for the charities at jobs, I think they were targetted towards adults with developmental problems and substance abuse problems. I don't think they required a formal diagnosis, but I could be wrong. It's a place to start though.

Hmm well I guess I just really hate the idea.....but then again its not like I'm causing problems for my mom there is plenty of room for me to have my own room in the house and I don't even eat that terribly much and I am sure she likes being able to see me more often then she could when I was staying in the college dorms. I guess i just get down on myself and feel like there is really no reason anyone should see me as anything but the useless burden I sometimes see myself as. Also I don't think she is in any position to be disappointed......but that's a topic for another time.

Also I was thinking more applying to work there, not benefiting from any of their charities...I just figured maybe their job expectations might not be too high.

Parents can be disappointed for any reason. Even though I have excelled farther career wise than either parent and make 3x their best combined income ever, my mother is somewhat disappointed in me since I'm still single, never had a relationship, and patronize brothels in Nevada.

Also, working at a charity can be considered a benefit. For example, look at the job programs listed in http://www.goodwillaz.org/jobs/workforce-programs
Some of the donations to the charities provide jobs for adults.

I''ll look at it but it says Arizona, so I am not sure that particular site will be helpful for me since i live in Colorado.......I was trying to just look up if there were any jobs available at the stores last night but the sites are really hard for me to navigate so I decided I'd just go into the goodwill stores in my area and ask if they have part time positions available.

Goodwill is located all over the US. I believe Salvation Army does this as well. Check the local branches and other charities in yoru area. There may be local versions of the websites for your area as well.

Well yeah I tried finding the Goodwill site for Colorado and that did not help any.........so I'll just ask at the store about jobs.