Not Enjoying Living (Trigger Warning: Suicide)

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Not enjoying it that much either...but be real, all the suicide options suck....and what if someone finds you before you've pulled it off? well that would suck better to just not try it in the first place.

Source: I tried before...

I'm sorry that you've struggled before/are struggling pretty significantly as well.

Suicide does suck. It's not like it's what I want to do, it's just the lesser of two evils if the other option is continuing to live and constantly suffering.

If I do go through with it one day, I'll be planning it out to the finest detail.

I am where you are right now. I know I'm young but this world sucks. I don't know if what I'm about to say is gonna help or not. You need some type of distraction from everyday life. Wether it be electronics or drawing. I know you can't be stoned all the time so maybe try other legal ways of self meditating. No needles,pills,or powder. Nope no no no. I know I'm not giving the best advice but try drinking when you can't be stoned. :}

suicide is NOT painless.

It can b- ima stop talking. I'm not in the right mind for this talk. To us suicide seems like the only route. The only route were peace is found. I really should go take me prescription. Eh If it was important they would have put it in a bright colored bottle right. Any way don't listen to me. I'm just rambling now. But there are ways to make it painless :{ I hate this s***. I mean what is there to like about living. I have a feeling ima be banned from this website. Well anyway when the people your here for is drinking till the point of ..... Sorry Tmi. Arrgh!! !!

I can't distract myself from reality all the time (I gave that my best go a few years back), and even if I could, the bottom line is I'm not interested in living a life where I desperately want a romantic partner and the experiences that come along with that, and I'm also at an age where it's quite abnormal to not have had a romantic partner. Where I can't escape reminders that relationships are something that the rest of the world gets to engage in but I'm not good enough.

Maybe I could make my peace with the other things I'm struggling with, but I know I can't make my peace with that, and I don't think I should have to.

Neither is my life.

If I were a criminal, I'd rather be given the death penalty than spend the rest of my life rotting in a prison cell.

Try antipsychotic medication. I've seen a man with an intellectual disability who had a gf, but he was on antipsychotic medication. I also knew fat jolly aspie on ten meds that had a gf..

Dude, stop.

Please stop bringing up girlfriends. So um Drinking helps when I feel this way. I try not to smoke but this world is Fu- messed up. :}

I am probaly not the best person to talk to cause right now I might just join you. This world sucks. I just wanna be happy.

For the record, I didn't tell him to stop because he was bringing up girlfriends. I told him to stop because what he's saying is stupid.

And just to be clear, I don't want to commit suicide. In fact, I really don't want to commit suicide. I'd much prefer for things to improve. But if perpetual romantic inexperience, and completely missing out on having a relationship while I'm young is the alternative, I'll take suicide over that any day of the week.

Last edited by The Grand Inquisitor on 05 Nov 2020, 12:31 am, edited 1 time in total.

Ok

I was suicidal on a 750cc motorcycle, around your age.
That was "fun".
I wasn't successful if you were wondering.

You'll have to let me have a ride on it and try my luck

in my aspie group a while ago, was a guy without most of his face. big gaping hole in the middle. what happened was he tried with a supposedly foolproof method [the business end of a shotgun up close and personal] and let fly. somehow he mostly missed, instead of aiming for his brain it slipped forwards and took much of his face off. he very luckily avoided his eyes for the most part. he useta be a very handsome dude. the worst part is still living with the result. sheet happens despite our vaunted plans.