scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-3 I feel pretty bad about myself

Hi Sunchild 1969 ! Why so bad about yourself at the moment?

-10.

I'm incredibly moody, at the moment, for no reason what so ever and it's really pissing me off. A few hours ago, I was chipper, but now I'm feeling so depressed. My mood, just deflates like a balloon, and it's so f*****g annoying. It keeps happening everyday. UGH!

-3. I attempted to open up about one of my issues (i.e., come out of the closet) to someone. I briefly introduced the subject, without relating it to myself, and was immediately met with derision and mockery, as well as calling my sanity into question for being interested in such a subject. I have recently come to terms with such issues and am more self-accepting, but that just made me feel dirty and stupid. I currently don't have the mental and physical resources to be open if that's the response to expect. I'll be keeping everything, including my AS diagnosis, to myself after all. I accept them, but they are incapable of doing the same for me.

I have a referral to receive support for the autism and other issues, with an approximate date, but the wait will be another 1/2 year.

That's awful, outlier. People can be asses sometimes.

+10

I'm meeting a newly found friend which I have been speaking to for over a year. I have met her one time before, she's astonishing beautiful and very kind. We have a lot of deep conversations - as we both think long and hard. And that's great for someone like me, and obviously for someone like her. She's a very warm-hearted, understanding, compassionate and kind person.

I got a pleasant surprise today, and now I'm feeling pretty damn good. I was feeling good before that, but the surprise added that "damn" factor. Sweet. +7.38999

5. But it's been like pushing custard uphill to get to this (heard Richard O Brian say that on the Crystal Maze, and saved it till now)

Still avoiding my email. Meh. Need to get round to some replies but at the moment can only manage the semi anonimity of posting here.

Blot on the landscape, my friend's fancy dress party is now not fancy dress. Should be a relief, but had a major obsessive fit and made an exact replica of Dorothy's outfit from the Wizard of Oz. Ruby Slippers, check. Blue Gingham pinafore dress, check. Toto in a basket...the full works. I have been sewing, bejewelling etc for a WEEK straight, and now she cancels.

^ Hmm....that sucks because it's not something you can just whip out at another function. Maybe the postman has a Dorothy fetish?

0. Just kinda drifting off and doing whatever at the monent. Sitting in my computer, watching TV, whatever. Well I'm gonna celebrate Korean thanksgiving tommorow, so it'll probably be a +10 tommorow once I vape some good chronic and munch like there's no tommorow hahhaha.

0 I guess would be right, not bad, not good, just here. Hoping something will pop off tomorrow so I will have something to do.

I really want to die. I don't know why my body won't quit.

Still -5. That's my usual happiness.

Still +10. It's been an excellent period of 24h.

Yeow, migraine.

-2

+10

I had an enjoyable field trip on Friday, and have an interview for a GIS position in South Dakota next week.