scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+10

Only 58 days left until graduation.

2ish. My mother is exceptionally passive aggressive.

+10

Only 57 days until graduation.

6.5. The flute book I got today looks excellent. Points taken off for being overwhelmed and for having to go into the city again tomorrow.

2

-1. A little sad today.

-2. Sicker than ever today. It's extremely uncomfortable. Have been in bed all week not getting much done.

(((((((((everyone)))))))) sorry you have been feeling down/unwell...

3. Glad to report a 3.. though I have definitely had my ups and downs over the last few days. my mind can be a bit volatile and unstable because I took meds that didnt agree with me for a year and they have not had a good effect on me, it has been particularly bad lately.

I think what has been happening to me is called depersonalisation but I am not sure. anyway I feel a bit better ATM though I keep going back into it again.

I hate being like this because I sort of feel that I would be a happy person if it wasnt for all this crap.

Anyway having an ok morning. My boyfriend is making me spicy potatoes and he is going to help me buy a 2nd hand bicycle on the online auctions.

0; A moment of indifferent clarity.

6 or 7.

Damnation festival yesterday, where I could unashamedly enjoy an entire days metal with my friends (ha, one of them had drawn up running order lists, sorted both by stage and time! And I'm the Aspie ) And if that wasn't good enough, one of my favourite bands, Life of Agony were the headline act, and didn't disappoint. Plus i got an autograph from the singer, although I have no idea why...it's not the sort of thing that usually makes any sense to me.

I know, the above is probably of no interest to anyone other than my small number of IRL friends, but.....

-3

I asked the car company if I could get some cameras for my car, because some people, 6 times now in fact, want to walk infront of my moveing car like brainless cattle. The company doesn't do the cameras, so now what am I supposed to do? This is stressful, the anticipation.

It's enough # 6 stepped infront of my car, told me to watch out, then tells the whole E$%^ apartment complex bull s**t like "Oh this racist tried to kill me", so that I get unwarented glares and scowls from half the occupants! Those rumors... talk about going too far over a common deal! The fact that I used my mirrors the entire time, and he didn't start crossing till I was already going. So it was like "Oh here we go with the bull s**t again"!

That bigot needs to drive an SUV some time. Hell, he needs to learn to drive period! He should work as a porter in a garage sometime! Does he feel like a God? Does he want to world to all watch out for him like flies with multiple visions?! Is he jesus, so he can pass through cars?!

I need evidence, so I don't get media demonised for someone else's idiocy! Do not diserve

1. Good that people are feeling good, not so good that others arent. Editing because there is no point in reporting on things not worth dwelling on. Not sure what I will do with today. It is a semi nice day and there are many roses out in the garden, including my favourite, a ruffled yellow one.

0.5 I just did my tax return, but I couldn't find any payment summaries, so I had to estimate, and now I'm really worried that the amount will be inaccurate and that I'll be in trouble; and, my only explanation is "I lost them"; which makes me sound about as competent as a 6-year-old. A six-year-old wouldn't get into too much trouble for losing things. I rather suspect that the Tax Department will treat me as a fully capable adult, though, since I'm not 6, and which is fair enough, since I want to be treated as a fully capable adult.
I try really, really hard to be at least basically competent at living a normal life, and some days it feels like I'm getting nowhere at all.

Half a point added for being able to sit down and make myself work on the music I'm writing even though I really don't feel like doing much besides curling up and hiding somewhere (I've managed to add about 3 seconds of music to what I've done so far, and those 3 seconds aren't orchestrated yet, but it's a lot better than giving up).

^ The tax department have copies of your payment summaries anyway , and no you won't get into trouble. They'll most likely amend your tax return for you at a later date based on the correct info they have, which means you may get a little extra refund, or you may have to pay a little bit back, depending on how much your estimates were off. They won't penalize you at all.

Its almost 4 am and a chinook arch is giving me a splitting headache right now I am feeling like a -11 on the crappy scale