I Got Jailed Again!

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...It strikes me that it would be coming up to 7 A.M. is Scotland , or 6 , perhaps you're getting up now , preparing yourself for (possible) jail reviillle times , say ? Having some porridge ?
I wish the best . I'll pray for you .

No, guys. I'm not in jail. I'm still going to have to appear in court, so my lawyer said we can meet, have me arrested which means a night in the station, then we may get all this sorted out the next working day.

...I thought you were going to court on Tuesday, and you had already gone home , you would show up at court in the normal manner...Was that what happened - or what ???????


e="PeterHoping44"]No, guys. I'm not in jail. I'm still going to have to appear in court, so my lawyer said we can meet, have me arrested which means a night in the station, then we may get all this sorted out the next working day.[/quote]

I get the impression just from the lack of newer replies that people don't care any longer. Either that, or they've giving up on me because they think I'm a fool who refuses to listen. Well, I can't say I blame anybody who has backed off from posting. But this is just mentally torturous. It's the most agonising thing I've ever had to go through.

I really am in despair now. Sara and Joanna (but especially Sara) were two brilliant workers once whom I miss like hell here. Now I'm never going to get that chance to make things right, because Sara left the company in August - a good year and a half after I was disallowed to work with her again, and Joanna for longer. In all that time, we know by now all the heartache and crap I've been going through, with three noted stints in jail eventually being my unnecessary punishment of the court's choosing, coupled with the lying, and all the rest of it, too. But it's all been for zero.

The reason I found out Sara left Autism Initiatives was because I felt upset the other day and it was the night before court, in fact. I'd been on my AOL Mail and sent an email to various workers' accounts, including hers, because I was feeling agitated about going to court and just needed to let off steam.

The police came on Thursday of last week to question me over something to do with Joanna, but this was from May, and I have no idea why they were conjuring this up. My lawyer was surprised about it too. Anyway, I took fright and ran off, not going home in days. Most of the time, I was trying to rest up in a woodland area which was practically impossible, then I went to my sister's. Even if the pigs had not turned up, I was already fearing the worst, since I saw my supervisor and well, you know the court needs a social report which was his task, and I kind of had every right to feel he was going to stitch me up, since I saw him many times before. So, yeah. I'd been rather worried about this court date anyway. Then that crap had to happen as well.

They had previously "disabled" her e-mail address to stop me writing to her, but then I received an auto-response where she authored something about going on annual leave and then ending her tenure on 28 August. Well, I just got it because she was copied into a message I sent to other people.

I reckon the sheriff may have jailed me, but he has a heart, that one. My sister, mother and my advocate all went to court, and the judge sort of understood why I was scared to come to court. However, I must hand myself into my lawyer's firm and be voluntarily arrested within a week, or I will go back to jail. Of course, it would be better if the police could just gather up all their evidence first so that I do not end up being let out, then later repeat arrested. Either way, it's how I'm going to move on from this grief that is bothering me. That company has never done me any good turns at all, as I'm sure you guessed.

You actually emailed one of the women again? The day before court??? People on here do care Peter. That's why they are advising you to stop doing what is repeatedly getting you into bother. If you need to let off steam in future could you not write an email/letter and not send it?

I can't think where they got that idea from.

It's not that hard. All you do really is link a cable from your device to your laptop or computer. Then you can usually just send items to the phone if you have a memory card inserted, but the phones themselves usually have so much built-in storage anyway. Yeah, some phones have suites you can install to make it all the more easy to manage your media, but I find dragging and dropping the files / folders to be much easier than doing it with some app, as they tend to just freeze and become unresponsive.

Buying the songs I love can be a pain. For example, let's just say you reside in Britain and you love music from all over the world. Many of the international bands I like don't distribute their albums worldwide. So some might be exclusive to say, the Canadian iTunes store. Not only do you need to add a fake address to bypass the registration process as you need a Canadian iTunes account now (no lie), you also have to choose some free app to make the payment method 'none' or it won't work.

OK. That's the first issue out of the way. The next bit of hassle stems from not being able to use PayPal or just any card to buy the tracks you are interested in purchasing. Instead, you have to go on sites like pcgamesupply.com and buy country specific gift cards for iTunes. Yeah, that's kind of annoying, but I do it all the time.

Since that site doesn't have any New Zealand redeemable codes and Kiwi bands are something of a focal point for me, I have to use 7digital and just change the link in the address for to get the New Zealand directory. They accept PayPal as a payment method, but the site will detect your IP address as being from wherever you actually live unless you are faking it. You will need a New Zealand proxy IP address, so I had to install Hola on Firefox and use that to get the songs, then I can unzip them.

Christ!

...I guess you said that Sara left the company this August , while you were banged up/in the calaboose:mrgreen: , but Joanna left the company before her ? The disallowing of you working with Joanna came before the disallowing of you working with Sara so it's been a longer time you're been disallowed from working with Sara than from working with Joanna ?
I don't entirely understand what you're saying about what you're trying to tell me about what you're have to do re: the next week , but I guess , yes , the idea that you're suppose to be arrested , held overnight , and then have to wait for the po-po to decide whether you're " jug-worthy " ?
Yeah , if you could at least be told ,...At least , " hand yourself in and you'll be held for a bit , while we decide if you're to be arrested , if you are , okay , you're getting porridge now , mate , but if you're not ' jug ' material we'll let you go , but you'll have a couple more days inside (Likely , anyways .) before the ultimate decision* comes down , if you are going to be sentenced , well , at least it'll start** right there and you can be on the road to getting out a little bit earlier rather than getting let out briefly before having to start it ' for real' only then " . That what you're saying ?
I could never quite " arrange to be arrested after a little ' partying '*** " before that , and a little $ that can be used from my account for commissary " during my Santa Cruz encounters with the boys in blue myself ! In my 2013 things in San Francisco , too , which were based on SF reviving old camping/not-shown-up-for court dates going as far back as 2008 , when I eventually turned myself in I turned myself in there , (After a long prelude of seeing if I'd get arrested in San Jose , while I was there , for the San Francisco warrants or not ~ They kept not arresting me in SJ but giving me a new court date in SF which I then would not show up for , repeat ! ) and got held for a few hours and then let go , eventually I got a date and got " alternative service/probation " that in my case just consisted of " go stay at this shelter (which I was staying at already) and go to some programs , bringing back a filled-out form showing you went " , or similar - However , it is also true that I left SF before that date (As I had some windfall money to pick up at my mailbox in San Jose) , so I have considered it possible that SF might revive it yet AGAIN , after all , they revived something after five years in 2013 , though , as of now , when I've asked I've been told it's all over in SF...However , the free lawyer I had in Santa Cruz , though he's been nice towards me , is ~ maybe ~ not , uummmm , maybe I shouldn't b***h about someone I still ask for information from (And I'm planning to...) , but , I have had " issues " with him) ~ Once I'm out of here , as it stands now , I'll be homeless here in SF again , if they pick me up for busking somewhere maybe they'd run my name through the list and find me there and then arrest me ?
*-Or I suppose it could be " We'll give you ANOTHER court date " ?! Hoo boy !
*-Or at least start the " waiting for the sentencing date " then .
***-Which for me might be junk food/soda/sugar...I drink rather little ~ and also , in Santa Cruz , they tend to be , perhaps because of its college/" surf party town " rep , rather lenient on routine public drunkenness , tending to hold people in the drunk tank for a while , " a five-hour tour " , then let them out...In SC they also take your property , after you're arrested by the Santa Cruz Police Department , then taken to the County Jail , which is run by the county-level Santa Cruz County Sheriffs' department , and left there+ , but (given my being homeless ~ and many more homeless - there) take your larger " stuff " to the PD++ , while you're in jail in the SCCS's ~ and if you're let out without your stuff , well , the PD is only open very briefly , only twice a week (Even by their own description) , so getting your stuff back...The last time I was jailed in SC , they , so to speak , f****d me over/held me to the letter of the sign , and I ended up saying " f**k it , I won't take it back " , regarding baggage with busking musical instruments and an expensive normal book-sized hardcover Bible in it , to name the most " special " , I guess , stuff in it ~ I offered them ," Just let me have those (Plus maybe a couplish other things .) back , you can keep and throw away the rest " , they wouldn't , so I said , again , " f**k it/you " !
I mean , I sort of took the excuse to lighten my load , and shrug it off ...I've lost so many things across my homeless years , basically I plan around it...........

+-Where they (SCCS) take the clothes you have and the in-your-wallet " personal things " and keep them safe for you ~ IF it's done " correctly " , I could mention at least two times that one or another of the SCPD/SCCS things didn't work ~ because THEY did improperly ! !! !! !! !! !! Howevs , I won't go into it now ..........
++-Where there's a sign at the " customers' " jail entrance saying " WE DO NOT STORE LARGE BACKPACKS & GUITARS "/suchlike .


eterHoping44"]I get the impression just from the lack of newer replies that people don't care any longer. Either that, or they've giving up on me because they think I'm a fool who refuses to listen. Well, I can't say I blame anybody who has backed off from posting. But this is just mentally torturous. It's the most agonising thing I've ever had to go through.

I really am in despair now. Sara and Joanna (but especially Sara) were two brilliant workers once whom I miss like hell here. Now I'm never going to get that chance to make things right, because Sara left the company in August - a good year and a half after I was disallowed to work with her again, and Joanna for longer. In all that time, we know by now all the heartache and crap I've been going through, with three noted stints in jail eventually being my unnecessary punishment of the court's choosing, coupled with the lying, and all the rest of it, too. But it's all been for zero.

The reason I found out Sara left Autism Initiatives was because I felt upset the other day and it was the night before court, in fact. I'd been on my AOL Mail and sent an email to various workers' accounts, including hers, because I was feeling agitated about going to court and just needed to let off steam.

The police came on Thursday of last week to question me over something to do with Joanna, but this was from May, and I have no idea why they were conjuring this up. My lawyer was surprised about it too. Anyway, I took fright and ran off, not going home in days. Most of the time, I was trying to rest up in a woodland area which was practically impossible, then I went to my sister's. Even if the pigs had not turned up, I was already fearing the worst, since I saw my supervisor and well, you know the court needs a social report which was his task, and I kind of had every right to feel he was going to stitch me up, since I saw him many times before. So, yeah. I'd been rather worried about this court date anyway. Then that crap had to happen as well.

They had previously "disabled" her e-mail address to stop me writing to her, but then I received an auto-response where she authored something about going on annual leave and then ending her tenure on 28 August. Well, I just got it because she was copied into a message I sent to other people.

I reckon the sheriff may have jailed me, but he has a heart, that one. My sister, mother and my advocate all went to court, and the judge sort of understood why I was scared to come to court. However, I must hand myself into my lawyer's firm and be voluntarily arrested within a week, or I will go back to jail. Of course, it would be better if the police could just gather up all their evidence first so that I do not end up being let out, then later repeat arrested. Either way, it's how I'm going to move on from this grief that is bothering me. That company has never done me any good turns at all, as I'm sure you guessed.[/quote]

Mate, Joanna stopped working with me two summers ago after some ridiculous "trial" shift, several months after I asked her out, which was my own stupidity. What chance did I have, being honest? Then they took Sara off my team in February of last year. In both cases, the seniors lied and said they were still my support workers, right up until I messed up on Facebook and then eventually, I got told to go to a meeting, where they chucked it in my face that they would not support me again. Then months later, they actually had the nerve to say to me during a visit in jail that they could have handled things better. A bit darn late, huh?

And mate, not being funny, but I'd rather not hear jail jokes.

If you lot only *KNEW* of all the bloody grief this has caused me and the amount of pending crap I'm going to have to sift through here. Then what? I'll never have those truly brilliant faces in my life any longer. It's been a waste. The past 18 months could have been used productively. Sara could have saw me do good for myself before she left my life. It will never come to fruition now. Will it hell?

Honestly - I'm at rock bottom now. Just feel like welling my eyes out; I just wasted £100 on a hooker again, after getting some of my benefits paid in. And a really bad one, too. Her profile said £70 for half an hour, but whatever. She was another money grabber, and I was supposed to pay off my outstanding debt with that cash. I'm not joking. I'd be unable to make this up if I tried. She actually thought there was something wrong with my, ahem. She clearly does not know that every ahem has those pink dotted bits around the shaft. Whatever they are called. Anyway, who cares? That's neither here nor there. She was not interested in anything other than my money.

In fact, I still cannot withdraw any money from a cash machine, as I have no bank card and yes, still haven't got no bus pass. All I've got is like £20 remaining until the next whenever. Food is not cheap, by the way, and a day saver on a bus is £4 now. I've been meaning to go to the library to get a new bus card sent out. It is called a Young Scot card. For now, I have to transfer money into a family member's bank account and have them withdraw my own money. No kidding! I really am up **** creek here, and the security people cannot get my stuff to me from Barlinnie because they need my signature. And at some point next week, I'll have to be arrested, processed and sent back to court. My lawyer says that's how it works.

Because I'm so distraught over losing Sara, I feel like leaving more voice-mail messages on her boyfriend's phone again. Yeah, I know that ain't wise because now I cannot contact him either, but I feel like I just *NEED* these people to understand. And I really have nothing left to look forward to. I'm having difficulty breathing, my body feels all weird and I feel scared and anxious, not to mention lonely, hurt, stung, the list goes on. I'm done.

My sister allowed me to get her keys cut to gain access to her flat as the security people left her keys in the property section as well, but because the police know all my sister's addresses and where my mate Frank lives, I feel paranoid about staying over, but there is no other indoor places apart from hostels and the police are already aware that guys on the run go in them. Unfortunately, there is nowhere else to go, at all. The police may not come back, but I don't want to hang around in case they do, since I got a lawyer's letter talking about warrants being issued as I never went to court, and the sheriff still wants to find me accommodation, but I will never trust support workers ever again. Tomorrow is Friday and court resumes on Tuesday, because Monday is yet another public holiday. It's a mess. I'll have nowhere to rest up. I'll just collapse and die, or something. I'm screwed. Face it.

I have no savings in the bank either. I'm almost penniless. My life is a joke now.

You can post trying to make me feel better, but it won't do any good. I just wish in 2013 I'd thought twice before text messaging them as well as kept my trap shut. They were all grasses at that accommodation and they wanted me watched.

It is like OliveOilMom said. You mess up, get a bad rep and it changes you for good. People have it noted and no matter where you go, that'll always come back to haunt you. Well, that's been shown. Now I'm not saying Joanna and Sara knew about the Laura and ED stuff. Maybe they did, but I do not really know. Heck, they could have just been very uncomfortable, but the fact is, I'm screwed. My happiness is never coming back. And where will I hold out until Tuesday?

It's last week all over again. It truly is a mess. All these months down the chute. My happiness in tatters and all this legal bull for what now feels like Diddly Sam nothing. My life will never be the same again.

...Thank you . However , all those references to technology are to things I don't have or don't even , really anyway, know about .
I just would , again , need someone near me helping me/showing me where to put my fingers/that I could ask questions of . With suitable tech/'puters near me too (Probably needing at least to own some .) .

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...I am sorry for your feelings , Peter .
I will say that , at least you didn't actually contact that boyfriend of Sara's , as I thought you said before I more carefully re-read it just now you yourself said that that would have put you further up s**t creek .
Also , while I can realize the same " part before..." concept I mention may have fueled that , I don't know whether spending 100 pounds was...Well , anyway . I hope you can - improve things somehow . At least in your plans for the future/looking forward .
I really do .

That's the thing - I did contact him. I left voice-mail messages for him and he could end up calling the cops despite me saying in an email to delete them. The court could even see that bit about me asking him to remove the evidence as trying to be in contempt of court, yet I think this is all pathetic bull crap and stupid anyway.

The pigs were already going to arrest me over an older incident which caused me to run off again last week. That is why I hate living with my parents. You never know when these annoying oinker scum buckets will want to return and bug you or arrest you over some lame incident from a while ago.

My lawyer talked them into handing myself in so perhaps they are waiting up to a week, like he said. He will not be happy to hear I have added even more charges to my decorated list. And more importantly, the procurator fiscal could be prepared to argue across that I am this, that, the next thing and the rest of it, yet we can agree the agency stitched me up.

It was supposed to be smooth sailing until my most recent court appearance. Only I got nervous again once they showed up and then I found out Sara left the company which is about time as she said about 2 years ago she planned to do so. Then all this crap happened between us, because that Robert was a grass and she freaked out. This will not just go away. Every bloody time I breach my bail, I have to answer to the stupid charges even if I feel there is justification for contacting Sara, her boyfriend Callum, or that other tart, Joanna.

The worrying part is, they could genuinely hate me and claim I was making them feel unsafe which is untrue and a load of rubbish, but you have to wonder. Sometimes I actually wonder if they "care" or feel any sympathy for the way I've been treated, or if they are just a***holes that wanted me to be put in jail. Without actually hearing their side of the story, it continues to eat away at me inside.

P.S. I just wanted to ask if you could stop quoting all the long posts.

Dude, get over yourself.

Dude, quit being insensitive.

I'll tell you this for nothing. The world doesn't care about you, about what you want or need. It only cares that you tow the line. You keep putting yourself first. Forget about that. It will only get you into trouble.

I don't act entitled to access to these women, but as a service user who needed their guidance, I was entitled to honesty.