My final decision

Post Reply New Topic

Another side note for what scares me about both life and death.

This guy's experience both sums up the thought that 'Source' is in control of every minute detail of existence, really the whole structure of hyperdeterminism. If you want to know how you could be as terrified of a truly all-loving entity as you could of an Abrahamic deity, it's that realization that said mind could show you an image of a given moment being 'perfect' in every minute detail:

If it makes anyone feel better, this week I've had an in depth convo with one of my closest female friends. She's a 10 out of 10 and hasn't been laid in years by her boyfriend.

She wants to break up as a direct result but is torn as he's a nice guy.

And I was one to think she getting it every other night.

She may want it, but not from someone like me.

I'm going to ask a question that might seem obnoxious but I think it's important.

Your curiosity.

You do a great job of giving exegetical breakdowns of political and cultural problems. That's something you do very well in PPR. You have to have some degree of curiosity to propel you to get a handle on those things in order to speak eloquently on them.

It seems, at least in this conversation, that the same curiosity wanes when it comes to exploring alternate ways of finding life-sustaining nourishment, at least beyond food, water, and paying bills, when it comes to the issue of relationships.

How aware of that are you and if you're highly aware of that - what killed your curiosity on that front?

I would say it's more a matter of self preservation than passing curiosity. I'm a white straight cisgender man. But I am also an autistic ex-Muslim atheist. That's three categories I fall into that face significant levels of discrimination and/or persecution, but remain largely unacknowledged by the Left.

As for exploring romance; I've already attempted all the different methods out, or at all the ones I can afford, and still failed at all of them. And frankly I'm just exhausted at this point.

I acknowledge that there is discrimination all over the place.

The task of a person who feels discriminated against is to prove the "discriminator" wrong by not bowing down and giving up.

Giving up makes it seem like the "discriminator" is correct in his "discrimination."

Also, you can prove the "discriminator" wrong by always taking the "high road," and by achieving what you set out to achieve, despite the roadblocks which the "discriminator" places before you.

I see.

I used to have it but, it's gone.

I'm not sure what did it but I think it was some combination of the following:

1) eating and digesting the black pills (fixed the mismatch between expectations and reality).
2) both microdosing and macrodosing psychedelics, often, although these days I stick more to micro which I do a few times a week.

Still haven't received a pm to chat about exploring another option. Definitely have not exhausted that option yet - and I genuinely wish you would. Because.. what if ? What if trying different things you've yet to try results in a positive enough change that you opt to keep going ? Only one way to find out!

_________________
No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.