scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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2. Feeling a bit ugh, had not nice dreams about my parents dog that was put down. He was only 2 years old. Somehow in the dream I realised that it has been around 10 years since he has been gone. My mum got 2 dogs at once, and the other dog, is getting to be an elderly dog now and perhaps that made me dream of him. The feeling I had in the dream is that I missed out on his whole lifetime, and times I could have spent with him. Pretty sad stuff...

I am going to the dentist sometime in the near future. Not so worried about that, probably just some injections and general mouth torture. The psychiatrist I went to see a few weeks ago has recommended I see a psychologist for my anxiety. He referred me to her and she phoned me the other night. I am not keen on speaking to a new professional, Im actually far less nervous of the dentist, but she did sound nice on the phone, so perhaps she will be ok.. I dont know.

Anyway getting so sick of living at the parents. One great thing is that they are going away for 10 days in January. Dont get me wrong, they are great parents and great people but living with parents when you are in your 30s seriously sucks.

I just need my own space to be an adult in so badly and wish I could be working full time again so I wouldnt be dependent financially.. my benefit does not cover dentist bills or this psychologist... and this stupid city doesnt have good public transport so you need to be either living in the centre of the city, or have a car, and if you are on a benefit cars are pretty unaffordable... my parents live on the outskirts so I think that if I was to go and get my own place I would have to sell the car. Perhaps that is what I should be thinking of doing.

^ Yep I get similar happening to me....

They are great in many ways, I just wish I didnt have to live with them or need their help... im too old to live with them and I think they need their space too... sigh...

+9

Graduation is edging ever closer.

(Gonna follow the proper scoring of -10 to +10 now with 0 meaning nothing)

-2

I hate the holidays already and I wish my family were only coming home for a few days. I can't relax with them here. I'll be shutting myself in my room all holidays because my brothers are dipsh*t's and they're horrible to be around. My guards will be up the whole time and I won't get a single day to de-stress.

Well, I'm feeling decent today, but nothing to brag about. I'd give it a +4 or 5, sorta neutral, with a touch of happiness. IDK, hard to describe.


Oh crap, i hear the garbage man coming down the street, and i forgot to take mine out. Gotta run.

^ Hope you caught the garbage man, Jawbrodt....

A 2. Feeling a bit ugh about living at home, the usual stuff. Right now I am trying to take stock of things. I dont think I can afford to move out until I have a part time job, (and keep said job...) because that would mean I would have to sell my car in order to afford rent and food...

I think I would be unwise to do so as here you have to wait half an hour for a train, and the amount of the city covered by these trains are minimal.. there are buses but would not be a good idea at night for a lady to take... so I think the best thing to do for now is to lay low here and try and do everything my parents ask until I have the means... or win the lottery, which is a fantasy of mine.

^Yeah, I think the best thing to do, would be to wait til you know you can afford it, and able to sustain it indefinitely. Probably not a good idea to give up your car, because I've been without since Spring, and I know I regret selling my truck. I don't live at home, but I know what it's like because I did it for waaaay to long, and know it's a pain in the ass. It'll be worth it if you stick it out, though, in the end. That's my professional opinion. Best of luck to ya.

And, I caught the garbage man just in time, last night. All is well. Pheew.


I'm feeling pretty good today, probably about a +5.5. Nothing really exciting going on, just some stuff that i need to do around the house. I'll report back in, if any major breakthroughs occur.

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My coffie addiction is active right now. I just realised one of my stress factors, as I was driving down a street this afternoon. My mind is building defence and bracing for negative emotional impact, clearly. I literaly expect someone to be an, out of the blue, butt hole to me.

-2
Had to do reconstructive ACL surgery on my knee and next 2 months gonna have to be very careful with it and go to physical therapy
at least I've gotten over the last month which was on crutches

^Best wishes, with the healing process.



I'm doing a little better today, although a tad hungover.LOL Figures, just when i have a bunch of stuff that needs to be done, I go and get drunk and ruin my motivation. Oh well, at least i'm in a decent mood, right?

-5 right now.

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really bored...

-1. life is slowly going down the toilet.