02 Oct 2009, 8:01 pm
DenvrDave
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Location: Where seldom is heard a discouraging word
02 Oct 2009, 8:18 pm
02 Oct 2009, 8:26 pm
Add my name to the list! I hate myself so much! ARGH!! ! 
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racooneyes
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Age: 47
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Location: blackeye, outer rim
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06 Oct 2009, 7:09 am
Yes I am in there for sure. I can't even find the words I want to say anymore or even if I want to say anything at all 
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Fickle_Pickle
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Age: 35
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Location: North Hollywood, California
07 Oct 2009, 6:45 am
Of course, I am as well.
07 Oct 2009, 8:05 am
Tollorin
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Age: 44
Gender: Male
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Location: Sherbrooke, Québec, Canada
07 Oct 2009, 11:28 pm
Add me to the list...
I have no friends, lost of sight those I had a long time ago. I mostly spend my days in front of the computer and only get out when I need to. I do spend two afternoons by weeks working in the storing of a office store, bur I don't like it. I don't like any work by the way, all work for me is boring...
If there was only that it will be O.K. But I can't stop being angsty for (propably) not being "gifted" and I am too pathetic for getting over it... 
I guess I'm the only one in the whole world with that problem.
08 Oct 2009, 2:00 am
No one has to be "gifted" to do stuff they like!
Creating can be mucking about with anything!
Inventing your own reality without having to worry about the
"rules" aslong as you don't hurt or annoy anyone else.
My existence is very tortured as I also have Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction Syndrome and have been so exhausted and in a lot of pain that I've been confined to the house and mostly to bed for the past months. I desperately want to sort out piles of stuff that have accumulated, and most of all do my painting. The most energy I can muster in a day is a few hours and that is to do very mundane things... shower, get dressed, make sure I eat something, do the clothes washing when I have enough energy, same with the dishes. I try to go on WP a bit each day as it keeps me from feeling totally cut off from life.
When I am this ill I can't read and often can't even lift my head from the pillow. My partner often has to do the cooking and when he is away working in a city 300kms away I find it really difficult. Being Aspie means I don't have any close friends nearby and relatives are not living in the area. Even on the occasions when I've had offers of help I don't take people up on their offers..... I'm not sure they really mean it.... and also they don't understand how draining it is to "socialise" and I fear they will help in one way and ear bash me for hours leaving me even in worse condition.
Sorry for the big whinge! I do try to keep a positive take on things and concentrate on my interests but when really ill it isn't possible to do anything and I feel thwarted.
