20 Feb 2010, 11:43 am
drcancerman wrote:
Its because I'll lose them when I move out of the UK. Today, again, I started to feel trapped.
The idea of living in Brazil repulses me so much that I actually feel headaches and a bit nauseous.
Well, at least it took 4 hours, in my case its years and with the help of someone!
In fact, that was the last one... Beyond that, I'm as desirable as a crocodile in the sewers.
Before going to bed, I was thinking about how nice it would be, having a wife, a stable life and a job in the US, coming home on a beautiful street. Bringing flowers to the wife, on a nice SUV... and happy, satisfied, and safe. Sadly, the only thing I have to look forward to is unemployment, dirty cities, violence, loneliness, unhappiness and quite likely a below standard mental hospital, if I don't end up killing myself by then.
Sorry, I woke up slightly (more than usual) depressed today....
The idea of living in Brazil repulses me so much that I actually feel headaches and a bit nauseous.
Well, at least it took 4 hours, in my case its years and with the help of someone!
In fact, that was the last one... Beyond that, I'm as desirable as a crocodile in the sewers. Before going to bed, I was thinking about how nice it would be, having a wife, a stable life and a job in the US, coming home on a beautiful street. Bringing flowers to the wife, on a nice SUV... and happy, satisfied, and safe. Sadly, the only thing I have to look forward to is unemployment, dirty cities, violence, loneliness, unhappiness and quite likely a below standard mental hospital, if I don't end up killing myself by then.
Sorry, I woke up slightly (more than usual) depressed today....
Wait....I thought you already LIVED in Brazil....:S Are you Brazilian? I thought you already lived there...
I felt that way when I had to fly alone.
Lol, oops. Chin up, though. All this negative talk about yourself isn't helping anything. I'm sure you have SOME positive qualities, and you're just brushing them off.
Yeah, I think about that, too. First I want to establish a nice home, alone. And have a job I love, and a career to emmerse myself in. Then I want to get married, and have the car, and cat, and "american dream" XD
20 Feb 2010, 1:53 pm
Spazzergasm wrote:
drcancerman wrote:
Its because I'll lose them when I move out of the UK. Today, again, I started to feel trapped.
The idea of living in Brazil repulses me so much that I actually feel headaches and a bit nauseous.
Well, at least it took 4 hours, in my case its years and with the help of someone! In fact, that was the last one... Beyond that, I'm as desirable as a crocodile in the sewers.
Before going to bed, I was thinking about how nice it would be, having a wife, a stable life and a job in the US, coming home on a beautiful street. Bringing flowers to the wife, on a nice SUV... and happy, satisfied, and safe. Sadly, the only thing I have to look forward to is unemployment, dirty cities, violence, loneliness, unhappiness and quite likely a below standard mental hospital, if I don't end up killing myself by then.
Sorry, I woke up slightly (more than usual) depressed today....
The idea of living in Brazil repulses me so much that I actually feel headaches and a bit nauseous.
Well, at least it took 4 hours, in my case its years and with the help of someone!
In fact, that was the last one... Beyond that, I'm as desirable as a crocodile in the sewers. Before going to bed, I was thinking about how nice it would be, having a wife, a stable life and a job in the US, coming home on a beautiful street. Bringing flowers to the wife, on a nice SUV... and happy, satisfied, and safe. Sadly, the only thing I have to look forward to is unemployment, dirty cities, violence, loneliness, unhappiness and quite likely a below standard mental hospital, if I don't end up killing myself by then.
Sorry, I woke up slightly (more than usual) depressed today....
Wait....I thought you already LIVED in Brazil....:S Are you Brazilian? I thought you already lived there...
I felt that way when I had to fly alone.
Lol, oops. Chin up, though. All this negative talk about yourself isn't helping anything. I'm sure you have SOME positive qualities, and you're just brushing them off.
Yeah, I think about that, too. First I want to establish a nice home, alone. And have a job I love, and a career to emmerse myself in. Then I want to get married, and have the car, and cat, and "american dream" XD
Not yet, no. For more details check out my previous post with a scanned letter from my doctor. I'm , sadly, a Brazilian currently living in the UK. The problem is that there isn't much to look forward to as long as I have to end up in Brazil.
It'sd horrid, more nightmares from today. It's mostly a combination of running away, surviving, criticism, loneliness, hiding, violence...
22 Feb 2010, 11:38 am
that's lame. Hey, you might find something enjoyable there, though! The nature is beautiful, isn't it?
I hope you find something good. Just look for it. Try not to be so down.
24 Feb 2010, 8:04 pm
Spazzergasm wrote:
:( that's lame. Hey, you might find something enjoyable there, though! The nature is beautiful, isn't it?
I hope you find something good. Just look for it. Try not to be so down.
I hope you find something good. Just look for it. Try not to be so down.
Its a bit difficult to find; Especially when te cities are dirty. But even if I find something enjoyable, at the end all that will matter is how I'll be treated. Staying unemployed until, for some miracle, I get a visa to the US/Canada is really hard...
Once again, thank you for caring about me.
01 Mar 2010, 12:52 pm
drcancerman wrote:
Spazzergasm wrote:
:( that's lame. Hey, you might find something enjoyable there, though! The nature is beautiful, isn't it?
I hope you find something good. Just look for it. Try not to be so down.
I hope you find something good. Just look for it. Try not to be so down.
Its a bit difficult to find; Especially when te cities are dirty. But even if I find something enjoyable, at the end all that will matter is how I'll be treated. Staying unemployed until, for some miracle, I get a visa to the US/Canada is really hard...
Once again, thank you for caring about me.
You mean treated by people?
It's the least one can do.
