Has anyone ever taken advantage of you?

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Almost everyone outside my family.

I have no idea when I'm being used or not, and am desprate for friends...

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Have DCD,ADHD, and many others (and possible AS). Husband-to-be has AS/PDD.
Name: call me Nitz.
Age: 16
Obsession: Neuro-psychology, my boyfriend, neurology (stopped denying it).
Illy, I love you.

Lots of older people I've worked with & some of my managers took advantage of me when I was working because I'm a very hard worker who never goofs off & do all I can to get the job I have to do done & I'm very loyal. Managers would ask me to do special projects becuase they knew I wouldn't complain when most others would & they would ask me to come in earlier or stay latter because we were short handed but then they'd make me leave like 5 hours early my last day of the week because they didn't want me making over-time at the last minute. I didn't seem worth it for me to show up go in for only a couple hours but they didn't tell me till I got there that OT was cut.

I also find a lot of my friends take advantage of me. I loaned people money when I don't have much myself. One person owes me a lot rite now but he's paying me back a little at a time & we've added interest to it so that's good but I have some debt myself but it's low fixed interest & the extra I'm getting from him is probably more interest than what I would of saved but still. Also when my friends are having problems & need/want to talk about something; I'm there for them but when I want/need something; they are usually not around. I want to help when I can & I know most people have busier lives than me so I cut em slack but still.

When I was in a relationship years ago I was very protective of her & I wanted to do everything I could to help her & keep her happy. She meant everything to me & meant more to me than myself.

Some psychs said I was codependent. I don't think I am but I may have some characteristics of it. I think some of it is because I tend to be a burden to my family & society & there were lots of times in my life when I took advantage of friends/others & hurt em unintentionally because of my AS & other issues. I'm a huge sucker for a hardship case sometimes because I can relate & I feel like I took more than I gave back. A.lso some(or lots) of people say that my perception of things is very different.
Not sure if this makes sense

when I was lil we had pretzle day, 25cents for pretzle many people said they'd be my friend if I gave them a quarter needless to say never happened and right now I get taken advantage of by men and it sucks cause I always end up heart broken and more depressed. Dont' eat dont' sleep contemplate suicide ((never follow through why? Because I think about how devestated my family would be, no matter what I know they'd be hurt the most, I've had friends who had committed suicide and it hurt me so much so I know itd hurt others)) At school I took over projects lol cause I didn't trust the others to do the dang work