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I see. I like the DS, I own about 14 games or so. I am a pretty big fan of novel and quirky games.

Though I am a pretty big portable gamer. (don't have a psp though, they are too expensive for me.) I've owned a GBA and tons a games, plus many original Gameboy games. Its fun.

i have a gameboy too. actually i have 2 of them one is the first kind they came out with and it amazingly still works to this day i used to have more games for the older system but we think that the other case was stolen.

i'm the other way i have a psp mostly cause i like the games for it and the controls are more familer but i have to say it took a while to learn the analog stick and i wish the loading screens went faster. i can tell you though that it is a decent machine execpt for the slow loading it's not to bad.

i don't have to much to go about with the ds but i've seen the one in wallmart up on display and have played it and if it had games that i like i'd be mine too.

well isn't this lovely torch 3 is dominating again.
i get 3 days peace then here goes the usual.

well currently in torch 3 it seems everyone wants to snuggle in bed with xemnas currently saix, axel, vexen, and larxene are all in the same bed. next we get a spa and i've got some odd ideas for that. but i need a damn villian for this thing, why did i kill off tammy.

seph: don't you dare bring her back.
everyone else think the same way.
everyone else in t3: YES!! !
ok, ok shesh.

Holy crap, someone else is held hostage by their own imagination too?

For 11 years I had a story running through my head and keeping me down. It was what I thought of first thing in the morning and the last thing at night. I could focus on schoolwork or another constructive activity for a little while at a time, but the story would come right back. It was like a drug that cost nothing and was available at any time. It felt so good.

My life revolved around that story. In school, I would look forward to being able to go home where there were no teachers around to interrupt my thoughts. Even during school, I would often take no notes and let my story run, despite the teachers droning on and on. The only reason I read books at all was to feed the story and keep it supplied with new adventures and settings.

Of course, those were the good old days when my story wrapped me in a constant haze. A few years ago, my story left me and I don't know why. I have had a void in me which has yet to be filled. It was the only thing that made me truly happy for a long time. I have managed to bring it back for brief periods, but it just isn't the same.

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O_O wow that's pretty much the same as mine. but i haven't gotten to 11 years yet dang, i'm only on the 7th year i'm hoping to keep mine till i die. yeah it's usually the first thing i think of when i get up too, and usually the thing that keeps me up at night.
focus yeah it's hard to get much of anything done and i can feel torch 3 pounding at the back of my mind the whole time. a drug yep that's how i describe mine.

same here instead of school work torch 3 is what i'd be thinking about. if i was in a school where the teacher talked i couldn't think about it unless i taught myself to, so it was bad that i was in a private school. i aslo take plots and the works from stories too also i take stuff from movies and games hence the fact that xemnas is in it. i also have characters of my own and from other shows, movies, and animes.

my story is still going strong and when that pill i was given took it away i felt like part of me died. well if you want to bring it back you try listening to music cause that helps mine dominate more. and mine does make me happy and i hate when it gets interupted. i hate it when my parents think it's easily overcomeable or it's some awful thing that needs to be killed.

Music has the opposite effect on me. Back when my story ruled my life, I used music to keep it at bay and allow me to get schoolwork done.

As for your parents, maybe you should tell them that you can't overcome something you don't want to fight. However, you could try learning how to control it, rather than it controlling you. Try to ignore it for a short period of time, and do something constructive like drawing. Don't be afraid to lose it. If it is anything like mine, it will come back to you.

This is not some evil enemy that needs to be fought with every ounce of your strength. Though I have badmouthed my story in the past, it has provided me with some of my happiest memories. It is a love-hate relationship, but I would want to give up my story.

maybe is should tell them that though i bet they'd find some way to go against it.
i'm trying to get it under control but it's giving me stomach aches i'd rather let it take a break on it's own. yeah mine always comes back even if it's been hindered for a long time.

yep love-hate relastionship describes it perfectly. i don't want to give mine up i use it to save me from reality and to keep me company.

Well, I am in no position to tell you how to deal with your parents. I can only share my experiences and hope you can learn something from them. My parents did not know about my story untile a few years ago. When I came perilously close to flunking high school, my parents and teachers just thought I was smart but unmotivated. They did not get the whole story until I flunked out of college and blew thousands of dollars of their money. By the time I told them, my story's hold on me was nearing the end.

I never experienced physical pain from trying to suppress my story, though. Of course I never really tried to suppress it, either. The one time I actively fought it, I kept it away for about a day and a half before it came flooding back.

I had three stories running throughout my adolescence. Sometimes they crop up again, to fill space if I'm very bored. I would take characters from movies I'd seen, and comics I'd liked (one of the stories was My X-men) and then use my own plots etc. They were very violent and repetetive. I always asked people if they did anything like this and nobody ever did...it was always under my control, however, to pause, and restart, although I sunk into them everyday, to ease boredom at school and anywhere else.

I harnassed those powers and put them into writing books back then, and I'm still a writer now. Even back then I knew I couldn't just "write" my stories because of their visual nature, everything being stolen...my best advice is not to read fanfiction on the internet. Begin reading novels, fantasy novels or whatever you like, if you like star wars read those books, or get into a big fantasy series. Do your stories involve a lot of Hong-Kong action, intensified comic-book violence, sex-stories? I bet they do...read novels, and you'll find instead of "images," sentences and narratives will "possess" you. Suddenly you will have awesome power to write, which anybody respects.

My story always had quite a bit of violence. I loved thinking about huge space battles or bloody land engagements. However, I have read lots of books, and no sentences or narratives have ever possessed me, unless they could be incorporated into the story. Congratulations to you on harnessing these stories at such a young age. I only wish I was so fortunate.

Hey man, liked your drawing a lot!

When you have more show us, ok?

Jetfox: Wow. I don't have any advice. I wish Xanthron did that.

The huge space battles are fun, especially when you get people executing cool/strange manuvers and such. My writing style goes very well with person-to-person combat, so that is always fun.

The ground battles are fun to do with Matrix-style special effects. I have good memories of when that movie came out.

matrix style battles, cool. most of the fight scenes in mine are a mix bettween the three animes the built the foudation for this thing. sonic style, final fantasy, and dragon ball Z.... what the fight scenes were awesome in that anime so i got a bit of awesome fireballs energy beams and what not blowing up things, tons of weapon fights, and a little of the hi-speed sonic style fights which includes running up the sides of buildings, and i also got a little of my own style of fighting mixed in.

I think my mental battles just improved. That is some good stuff.

yeah and it's really interesting to watch when i'm caught up in my story.