How bazaar - I'm blown away - I wrote this then didn't come back because It felt pointless. I joined another site and tried to express myself there.
Low and behold I log into WP this evening to find I've had more responses than I've ever had before!! !
To be honest - that seems to be the kind of irony that happens to me all the GD time.
I even broke down and told my ex the other day that I feel like I am cursed - it sound stupid and paranoid - but it seems so true on many occasions.
Thank you all for responding and letting me know I'm not alone

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Because of your post, I actually took some action of my own... I started a thread in the haven - The Misfit Club. since you are the inspiration you are most welcomed to come on over and join in.