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02 Oct 2011, 3:15 pm

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Well I am not dead, my throat feels like I swallowed a rough rock though. I did not went to the hospital since I knew there was nothing more they could do. I washed my stomach pretty well, I vomited like ten times, then drank a pint of water and vomited ten more times and then did it all again three more times. Besides strangers make me very uncomfortable and hospitals are terrible with all those germs and awful smells and on top of all I am sure I could not have taken all those mean comments from the hospital staff specially due to my hyperempathy which would have made me fell terribly awful.

But like I said on the thread's oppening comment, a very good thing came out of this, there is a way to not be sensorially overloaded virtually all the time. You see I have a sunlight, fluorescent light and other light spectra that make it so very much worse and well there is light practically everywhere at anytime but I am sure I'll never forget those three to four seconds I was just my self, ridden free of the S.O. that kept me burnt out. I have yet to find a safe alternative to feel like that but it has certainly given me a new purpose in life, and to see such kind comments of your support certainly make me feel like there are people I can count on even if it is through this medium.

As for the comments that tried to make me to reconsider based on my loved ones I ply to you to encourage me from another angle since though there are a few set of people that "care" about me none of them has ever taken all so seriously my AS nor any of my special needs. I have had to make it despite that I am constantly treated like the freak that calls out for attention by acting strange, and I am ever so tired of hearing one can just "move past" AS and my light issues, that it just takes some will power to get to be NT. So please if you indeed want to help lets work around the fact that though there are people that would be sad if I died not even then would they reconsider that will power cannot make AS go away. If anything it has taken me a lot of will power to not have done this several years ago and hundreads of several times since then.

dude not feeling burnt out sounds like a good experiance. what medicines do you think you took?



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02 Oct 2011, 8:31 pm

From the first post, it sounds like a combination of Ibuprophen and chorphenhiramine. And, HairlessAlbinoCat, as I'm sure you know, all-the-counter medicine is still real medicine, as is herbal.

And I know a lot of doctors aren't good listeners (which is putting it mildly). I've certainly had my share. And neither have I had much luck with so-called mental health professionals.

But if you can find a doctor who's a halfway good listener (which might be the most a person can reasonably expect!), he or she might help you tinker with different medicines to dampen down sensory overload.



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02 Oct 2011, 8:42 pm

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OP, I'm glad you're okay. Please do try to find some safe way of managing your sensory issues. I am on medication that helps with mine.

~Kate
Kate, if you feel comfortable, maybe you could share what medicine works for you. Not that it will work for everyone, a lot of this is highly individual. But it might give people better questions to ask their doctor. Thanks.

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HairlessAlbinoCat, I'm glad you're okay, too. :D



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03 Oct 2011, 5:32 am

The OP is lucky he didn't turn himself into a vegetable with severe brain damage. This or being paralyzed is sometimes the result of an unsuccessful suicide attempt.



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03 Oct 2011, 8:08 am

HairlessAlbinoCat wrote:
Well I am not dead, my throat feels like I swallowed a rough rock though. I did not went to the hospital since I knew there was nothing more they could do. I washed my stomach pretty well, I vomited like ten times, then drank a pint of water and vomited ten more times and then did it all again three more times. Besides strangers make me very uncomfortable and hospitals are terrible with all those germs and awful smells and on top of all I am sure I could not have taken all those mean comments from the hospital staff specially due to my hyperempathy which would have made me fell terribly awful.

But like I said on the thread's oppening comment, a very good thing came out of this, there is a way to not be sensorially overloaded virtually all the time. You see I have a sunlight, fluorescent light and other light spectra that make it so very much worse and well there is light practically everywhere at anytime but I am sure I'll never forget those three to four seconds I was just my self, ridden free of the S.O. that kept me burnt out. I have yet to find a safe alternative to feel like that but it has certainly given me a new purpose in life, and to see such kind comments of your support certainly make me feel like there are people I can count on even if it is through this medium.

As for the comments that tried to make me to reconsider based on my loved ones I ply to you to encourage me from another angle since though there are a few set of people that "care" about me none of them has ever taken all so seriously my AS nor any of my special needs. I have had to make it despite that I am constantly treated like the freak that calls out for attention by acting strange, and I am ever so tired of hearing one can just "move past" AS and my light issues, that it just takes some will power to get to be NT. So please if you indeed want to help lets work around the fact that though there are people that would be sad if I died not even then would they reconsider that will power cannot make AS go away. If anything it has taken me a lot of will power to not have done this several years ago and hundreads of several times since then.


Oh my god. You put your body through all that :(
Please don't do that to yourself again. It may sound stupid as you don't know me, but you are worth more than that. I get suicidal too, you just have to hold onto that glimmer of hope that you can offer the world something. I have no doubt that you can.



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03 Oct 2011, 9:27 pm

AardvarkGoodSwimmer wrote:
Meow101 wrote:
OP, I'm glad you're okay. Please do try to find some safe way of managing your sensory issues. I am on medication that helps with mine.

~Kate
Kate, if you feel comfortable, maybe you could share what medicine works for you. Not that it will work for everyone, a lot of this is highly individual. But it might give people better questions to ask their doctor. Thanks.

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HairlessAlbinoCat, I'm glad you're okay, too. :D


I'm on Cymbalta and a low dose of Risperdal. The Risperdal *really* helps to reduce sensory overload for me, even though it's only a low dose (I'm afraid to raise it for fear of weight gain, though).

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04 Oct 2011, 2:56 pm

"For death begins at life's first breath And life begins at touch of death"
— John Oxenham



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04 Oct 2011, 4:14 pm

I like a little Zen myself! :D



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04 Oct 2011, 4:28 pm

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I like a little Zen myself! :D


It is not only a Zen point of view, I feel as a phoenix that rouse from it's ashes and those ashes have been swept away by the winds of oblivion



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04 Oct 2011, 9:22 pm

I like that. Even though it's kind of scary, I like that.

And maybe using it as a spring board for branching out? Maybe some political or social activism you've vaguely thought about, and viewed as a series of experiments? Or back to school on your terms, or fun sports and social groups? I got involved in peace activism during the first Persian Gulf war way back in 1990, and even though I learned a lot, the peace groups were as hierarchical as anything else, so overall, disappointing. But it doesn't always have to be that way. (theory that for variety of reasons only 1 out of 9 official groups and organizations really work out. So . . . light touch variety of groups)

So, maybe giving yourself permission to take a series of risks vaguely between 30 % and 70%? And what I can tell you from poker is that, over time, it's almost guaranteed that some of the 30% ones will come in and some of the 70% won't. In thoroughly unpredictable fashion, of course. 8)



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04 Oct 2011, 10:56 pm

Meow101 wrote:
AardvarkGoodSwimmer wrote:
Meow101 wrote:
OP, I'm glad you're okay. Please do try to find some safe way of managing your sensory issues. I am on medication that helps with mine.

~Kate
Kate, if you feel comfortable, maybe you could share what medicine works for you. Not that it will work for everyone, a lot of this is highly individual. But it might give people better questions to ask their doctor. Thanks.

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HairlessAlbinoCat, I'm glad you're okay, too. :D


I'm on Cymbalta and a low dose of Risperdal. The Risperdal *really* helps to reduce sensory overload for me, even though it's only a low dose (I'm afraid to raise it for fear of weight gain, though).

~Kate

Thank you for sharing of your experience.

And here's an article I like saying that medication is very much trial and error:
Treating depression can be hit or miss (2009 article)
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt163505.html

HairlessAlbinoCat, although it sounds like your issues are sensory overload, rather than depression.

((meow))

But hope the general idea from the article of trial and error in a respectful sense is useful.



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06 Oct 2011, 2:33 pm

The following is a story I've made up:

In Northern India, every day the monks in their colorful maroon robes go out into the meadow, assume the classic sitting pose, and mediate from 6:00 am all the way to 9:00 really "trying" to achieve oneness with the universe. One day a bear comes out of the forest onto the edge of the meadow. She briefly looks over at the monks with curiosity and then continues on with her foraging. This bear is more of a zen master than any of the monks are!