Just something I need to say

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More generally, this is another part of Teh Intertoobs. Some persons are going to be bites-in-the-tuchus where they figure there's lesser risk of censure or consequences.

In general, I've found you're generally quite insightful on a number of topics; it'd be unfortunate for you to have to take a break from the forum entirely. If it helps, look at the member counter (it's currently reading ">62k"); I'm guessing you haven't really been bagged on by every single one of them It can be difficult not to feel that people are discussing viewpoints that are very personal to you in a way that slights those viewpoints (I think I did that once to you by accident in fact). It might be useful to remember that probably almost no one here knows you all that well. So most folks are literally in no viable position to be able to cast valid judgments on who you are.

i know that i can not help you but i wish i could. there is something about you which makes me sad, and i have read many posts by other people who are not having a good time and they feel very bad, but i usually think i am not able to help them, and i trust that the other posters on WP will come to their aid, and i then look for other posts which i can post in.

there is something different about you. i am not sure whether i am being influenced by your avatar picture, but i read all the things you say, and i feel sad because i can do nothing to help you. i wish i was more intelligent, because there is something about you which makes me think you are truly vulnerable and helpless, and even though you have many people trying to cheer you up, i see that it is maybe not working, and i had a bad dream that you took your life. i dreamed that alex posted a post that said that you had died and it made me feel very sad indeed.

i still have no advice for you, and i know it is none of my business at all, but i do read most things you say and i look for your name (as the last poster in threads (i do not go deeper than that)) when i come to this site. i just hope so hard that you find the way out of your torturous mental prison by whatever means, and i wish for you to be happy sometime in your life.

i do not want a reply at all. i know you would find it hard to formulate one. just please do not give up no matter how hard you see your life. you could be a hero to some if you live through what others may decide is too hard to bear.

i will continue to read what you write, but i will not reply from now on.

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I like Sweetleaf, I do. I get frustrated with her at times, but I like her. I wish she would PM me sometimes. We could talk and become friends.

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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
My forum is still there and everyone is welcome to come join as well. There is a private women only subforum there if anyone is interested. Also, there is no CAPTCHA.

The link to the forum is http://www.rightplanet.proboards.com

I was neutral before (I apologize if I've said or done anything to offend you), but after reading this thread, I like you more than I did.

I can sympathize a lot with where you're coming from. My problem, though, isn't so much what is said as what I imagine is probably being said. I'm incredibly self-defeating so I always think, "what do they say about me in private?" but I grew up with a bunch of confusing histrionic people and that kind of paranoia gets ingrained after a while.