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Is it to do with what you went through before that's causing you to feel worthless and unloved etc.?

I feel the same way, just want you to know you not a lone in this. I have a sutdent loan in defalt they will be garnishing my wages soon and I cant make my self pull it together long enough to fix the problem. PTSD is a huge hurtal then add aspergers to it it becomes hard to function. I can keep it together most the time by just doing and not thinking.

Doesn't anyone understand

So I've looked for some advice/info on ways of coping and types of help on various sites. And it seems like every single ounce of information I can find is totally 'recovery' and 'overcome' themed. And I think for most people that gives them a feeling of hope or something...but it just makes me feel mis-understood, alienated and overwhelmed with stress.

I mean It feels like they more want you to get well for societies benefit or their benefit then for your own benefit........almost like now that I really acknowledge the mental disorders and such I have I am now obligated to jump on over-coming it. Well as I keep trying to explain I'm tired, worn out, burnt out, feel empty inside and very much would just like to cope with these things rather then using energy I don't have to recover...........I mean is that so wrong? I mean maybe some mentally ill people could make great contributions if they're cured but I'm not one of them why don't they go find someone a little less burnt out to use that approach on.

No offense to anyone, I just feel really overwhelmed by all that and almost like I'm not even allowed to be as burnt out as I am. I suppose it would also be helpful to tell any therapists or mental health professionals I might talk to how I feel......and maybe they'd understand and not use such a pushy approach. I just feel like no one understands where I'm coming from.........that's probably not quite true but I guess I can't change how I feel.

At work they made us attend a medical symposium where PTSD and its effects on soldiers were discussed. These doctors made it sound that these soldiers had a mental illness that needed to be cured by their new medical treatments. But my conclusion was that the soldier would be mentally ill if he did NOT have PTSD. Does the government expect soldiers to fight wars as mindless robots with no ethical conscience? Of course soldiers are going to feel bad about killing people and witnessing the civillian casualties that the government calls "collateral damage". And really the flimsy justifications that the government uses to rationalize war cannot ease the soldiers conscience nor can the pro war military chaplains provide any help.

Rather than treating these soldiers as diseased patients, doctors should listen to these disturbed soldiers as if they were wise prophets.

Well I agree, but that's only one thing that PTSD can result from and certainly wasn't the case with me though I could say based on my life w is it any wonder I am mentally ill? just like it might be hard for one to kill people and somehow not have their mental health effected...another thing medical professionals should realise is no matter how you get PTSD it's still PTSD and it still kills your motivation for life even more than depression so if you have both then you're really screwed. I mean it's bad enough without constantly hearing about how you can overcome it if you just try a little bit harder...just a little bit harder and somehow convince yourself it will get better so that when the next horrible thing happens you can end up even more burnt out because once again it just got worse and you already spent all your energy convincing yourself it was getting better or would get better.

so I'm frusterated because I need help dealing with the fact it can and might get worse...but it seems like all I can find out about is theories on how you'll start feeling better and go back to being happy like you were before...and even before the PTSD things were pretty bad, so I don't even know what it feels like to be over-all content with life. I mean I feel like I would say this all to a therapist only to have them say 'I understand, but if you just try a little harder and be more postive things will work out.' then I'm right back where I started. thinking 'no you don't get it, it might not.....and it could get worse and that is what I am not sure I can deal with. I don't even so much as expect things to improve because I don't see why they would.

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