30 y.o. no job, no friends, no gf and bday all on my own

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Happy Australia Day !

And thank you for your interest

Unfortunately, I got back to France, and I'm in Paris now. Still, maybe we should get in touch again, via MP, skype or whatever. I'd love to hear from you ! I'll leave it up to you, but really, I would appreciate to talk to you.

lucky you. on my birthday 2 people came around and interrupted me.

I feel so sorry for you, I really do. Wish there was something I could do to help. If I was in your situation, I would probably kill myself. Well, I am on the verge of committing suicide now. I can't go on living my pathetic life any more. I keep having these bouts of depression, where I just want to scream. I don't know what to do with my life. I don't want to live with people, yet I don't want to live on my own. I don't really know what I want to do. If I moved out, it will mean I would have to work full time, and I don't think I could cope with that. I know other people have to, but I'm not other people. I'm just a worthless being stuck with this disability what prevents me from living like a normal 22-year-old.

I hate my cousins because they all have normal social skills, more friends, and have the ability to enjoy going out, and that just makes me feel even more miserable. I would go out with them but I'm too shy to enjoy myself and I hate drinking. Yes, jealousy is an awful thing but I don't know how to stop it. And yes, sometimes I can occupy my mind by doing things that I enjoy, but sometimes a day comes where it all gets to me and I get myself stuck in this sudden depression that I can't shake out of.

I just wish I was either more clever or more sociable. I wish I could be someone that is studious and knows what I want to do and confident enough to go to university and study hard and able to mix with other confident, ambitious people. But I don't think I would handle university, all the coursework, if I will get on with the other students there, if I will cope, etc. Or I just wish I just had natural social skills and naturally enjoyed social events and could mix with others easily without appearing odd or too unconfident.

I have tried joining a club to meet new people similar to me, but it didn't really work out. There's not much of these things in my area, but there was something I could join, which I did (my counsellor suggested it). But I didn't really make any friends, even though I went for nearly a year. There were a few extroverted people there (they were socially awkward, but extroverted), and all the attention went on to them. There were some other quiet people there, but I didn't really know what to say to them. I said a few words to them and thought I was getting somewhere but it dwindled on and off. I'll say friends happen when you least expect it, which is how I got the few friends I have got now. I find plonking oneself in these clubs don't always work out. That's what you get for being shy.

AS really does f**k your life up. I didn't have any friends through school, then people wonder why I feel bitter now. I f*****g hate AS.

I don't have any friends to spend my birthdays with, but I do have family.

I suggest meeting up with fellow WP members if you can. I'd meet up with you, but it's this bloody snow and, anyway, I don't know where you live.

Will send a PM soon.

I kind of prefer having my birthday alone and doing what I want.

Last year someone actually planned something for me on my birthday and I didn't show up until everyone was leaving. I was fine with that.

I must admit, I f****n hate when NTs decide what's better for us - and they do it all the time !

Worst part is that they often ask our opinion first then reject it anyway and replace it with their own. No wonder I don't know is something I say alot becouse according to them its true.

On my 30th birthday I spent it alone writing an essay in my flat. I was a broke student. Since then I have not even acknowledged my birthdays. Birthdays are for kids to get presents on.

But if you feel down about it, then do what others say. Have fun by yourself, get drunk or whatever, watch a favorite film etc...