Thank you everyone for your replies. Even acknowledgement helps me, because I usually hide my problems from everyone. Since I don't "look sick", I rarely get any sympathy anyway. Just reading your messages gives me a boost of self-esteem. I truly appreciate it and am also sorry for your own personal struggles.
Fighting!
Jennyishire, I broke down and bought a Kindle yesterday. I should have bought one ages ago! It's so light and easy to read. Since I can adjust the font, I can even prop it up on a pillow in my lap. I had to use savings to buy it, but I think that's okay since it helps me.
You guys are awesome. 