Tyri0n wrote:
Geekonychus wrote:
Sounds to me like your main issue is that you're still trying to fit in with NTs. The basic harsh fact is that 99.9% of people are never going to like you. The key is to find other socially awkward freaks that you will get along with and are worth having around. It's what I've done. I can put up a mask when I'm going out and about but when I'm around friends, I want to be myself. If I can't be that way then they aren't real friends.
Sounds good, unless you're Borderline. Then, even crazy socially awkward freaks will hate you. That has been my experience anyway, even before I knew I had BPD/C-PTSD. Everyone literally hates me more and more the more they get to know me. It's not silent exclusion like aspies face. It's literal
hatred I experience, even from aspies.
Your experience isn't abnormal, kid. Not ALL crazy socially awkward freaks are worth your time just as I'm sure there are a few weird NTs that are. I've met more than enough Aspie/BPD/ADHD types who simply weren't great fits, mainly do to their own insecurities, self hatred and hangups. Hell, I was one of those guys up untill a year or so ago and it left me lonely and isolated.
You just have to be yourself (while being open and understanding of others like you) and find those kickass few that are worth your time and energy. Think of it like you're a lone wolf and just haven't found your pack yet.
08 May 2013, 9:22 am
