raped and never allowed to talk about it

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King , does the last part of your post , translating this , mean "...Well , the next to last part of the sentence , is it , " YOU are one of the few people familiar with the posts of..." ?
Or is it , " I am one of the few people familiar with ?
Or something else ?
Is the last part " YOU would definitely be a great counselor..." ?
Since you are as (you appear to describe yourself as being) " severely autistic " , I suppose you may stumble over words occasionally and leave the meaning of the completed sentence unclear/open to different interpretations...Since I maybe tend to be , kind of , " severely logical " , needing things to be really clearly stated or I get sort of puzzled , I am asking this .
I hope you don't feel offended .

...Frankly , I may be back in jail-likely more than one , in the Bay Area - soon , as I have found out that , similar to the " being homeless "-based FTA warrants in Santa Cruz against me that started all this...There are now 7 against me in San Francisco (where I haven't even BEEN for about , at least , seven months) based on older tickets/FTAs...the total bail quoted on thwem is not as much as what was on the SC ones , but it's a lot ! !! !! !! !! !! I've already been " threatened-arrest "ed by cops here in SJ in the last less-than-week .

...Okay , I see I did talk about this ~ I will kick it back up What it refers to is still true ...............................

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I am very sorry you experienced all this.

i was sexually abused as an adult. was able to talk to my mom (i guess she's less easily overwhelmed than most people) and a very good paid counselor as well as a volunteer abuse victim's advocate who had been through similar. you might try a domestic abuse service.

ASS-P you really have been dealt an incredibly sh***y hand in your life from reading your posts. I am very sorry about what has happened to you

I hope one day you can find some peace in your life that you much deserve.

...sniff~ :-(:-(

...I have had more to say here but once again I have v. limited computer time --- And , this is a bot of a not-surface-pleasant/catharsis subject for me to write in , so I haven't the time to write , let alone think here , now .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...One reason I have wanted to go to full-fleged college/uni is that I have thought I could find sympathetic people whom I could cry on the shoulder of/in the laps of and talk to them about it - With an improved social status , in a setting (uni) where people aren't (I would guess) quite as flashy about money/don't show it off as much , so I'd seem a relatively equal social status .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

as someone who went to college, i can tell you that folks there are no more likely to be receptive to hearing about a tragic past than anyone anywhere. people tend to get overwhelmed just hearing about it. they don't realize that the person telling the story has been through much worse than the person hearing about it. i know you don't like professionals, but most are better equipped to handle trauma than anyone you meet elsewhere.

ASS-P, I'm deeply sorry that this happened to you, and that your father was so unsupportive and verbally abusive when you told him. It's hard enough to deal with AS/autism, but then to also deal with the trauma of past abuse makes it that much harder.

I don't know if it is any comfort to you, but I experienced a lot of abuse growing up, and it has been almost impossible to find any true empathy and support to recover from the emotional wounds of it. I've tried therapists and 12 step groups. I just posted something about 12 step groups - even in 12 steps for adult children (of alcoholism or abuse), I have experienced a lack of support and empathy. They tend to be very dogmatic and cult like, and they tend to see the newcomer as a problem that needs to be fixed, and as a project that needs to be inculcated and indoctrinated into their way of thinking. I chalk it up to the fact that the world has become a cold, empty place. Unfortunately, I've had a lot of bad experiences of being exploited emotionally in my vulnerability both from my past trauma and my autism. There are a lot of sh***y predatory types out there.

My salvation is my strong faith in Jesus.

...Thank you both , maybe more later

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!