Depression - anyone beat this f*****g thing yet?

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No. I I keep trying but no.

Nope.

I hate myself for all kinds of reasons, and I hate the world because it's so unfair when it doesn't have to be.

I spent most of yesterday curled up in a heap, wanting it to stop. I struggle to get motivated to go out and do much at all.

Anxiety is a growing problem as well.

Well, I got rid of one depression and it was replaced by a different kind of depression

No. I could be worse, but it seems like I'm not going to feel better....Too many bad things have happened to me, and it's too much......

Just wanted to send big (((hugs))) to people struggling with depression. I'm bipolar and grateful that my depressive phases are only temporary, so I just have to wait them out. I get through them by being gentle with myself, and finding simple things to do that are enjoyable, and distract me from my feelings. (Like watching TV and movies, and playing computer games.)

I don't know if that's helpful to anyone else, but just wanted to say I care!

Games help tremendously. I've been a gamer since I was 5. When I was a lil kid they were entertaining but when I got older and more sad from different stuff because of being who I am I noticed that games demanded my focus and attention and I focused more on what was going on in the game then anything else.

It's very relaxing to play. I played World of Warcraft for 5 years and every time I logged on it was a 3-4 hour vacation from everything. I was defeating bosses, doing quests, reading lore, fishing, gathering flowers for potions and during that time I was in there and not out here and able to bug myself with stupid downer thoughts.

It's kinda hard to be depressed when a giant dragon is filling the room with lava making you jump around and sending smaller dragons to eat you.

Focus is on the activity. So games and sports and other things that demand your focus/attention kill depression.

I tend to be depressed constantly my entire life but I know if I do something that I like it will go away, Like sitting illustrating in Illustrator for 8 hours straight. There is no time for depression, just imagination and construction of shapes and colors.


jee,.. I don't think I can say more.

Good luck to everyone who are suffering greatly, just kick yourselves in the butt and get upon your feet. That's it. f**k what people think about you and what you do as long as it's not hurting anyone it's healing you.

I agree with this, doing something or some activity and even getting into your interests will help take your mind off of your depression.

Well it's weird for me as I go through depression and a hyper or upbeat mood :/ I dunno what that is actually ...

the way around that is to make exercise the first thing one does upon awakening, that way one can say it gets it out of the way and lifts one's mood for the rest of the day.

I just ride it out.

What did it feel like before I was depressed? Well... I do remember from 22-24, I was working hard, going to school and hitting the gym hard. Then I started to work a 4-midnight job in a new city for a little over a year and was socially isolated, but still hit the gym really hard. I finally got on day shift schedule before my 26th birthday. When getting out socially, i made the mistake of focusing on dating first instead of sociallizing. I continued to be isolated until i joined meetup groups at the age of 26, and sometimes anxiety took over and I left early from events early on during my experience (now I am an event organizer). I don't hit the gym as often as I used to and sometimes struggle to keep balance of social and physical activities.

I got involved with someone I shouldn't have when I was 27 and after my first breakup with a girlfriend (I started the spiritual path then, only to have my sense of spirituality destroyed during my friendship with this person I shouldn't have gotten involved with). For some reason, I communicated with that person after suffering my concussion and after taking my space (to find out she had no clue what I was going through, nor any regard). After an argument where I told her I was walking away, she made sure to tell me what she felt in a very hostile manner and what was left of my ego was destroyed as well. Then I hit rock bottom a month later after isolating myself from everyone again.

In order to learn to show people kindness, forgiveness, love, peace and joy, you will find people that simply don't appreciate it from you, and some will only pretend to care for as long as it benefits them to do so. That is very difficult to determine from time to time when you decide you like someone, but aren't willing to see through their flaws and obvious conflicts in your differences.

^^^
only when you put somebody else upon a pedestal and let them pick you up, can they let you down.

What was the difference between the two?

I have medication which doesn't take the depression away, but when I don't take the medication the depression is worse. I have been taking the medication for many years.

Other than that, exercise helps a lot. During periods where I am able to exercise every day the depression is not as bad.
It is always there though. Nothing takes it away for me.

I've tried some medication with exercise 3 times a week. Didn't stop me from hitting some of my lowest lows of all time.



In what way?



Wow, what happened?

I always hear exercise is supposed to help...but I have never experienced that, though my exercise mostly consists of walking or if I am a bit late to the stop to catch a bus and have to run as fast as I can to get on before it leaves. I mean while I am walking sometimes I feel a bit better since I am focusing on getting where I'm going or whatever but there's no real lasting effects. Like its possible when I get back home I'll be just as depressed.