Family
My true goal is happiness, not girlfriends, not friends not family.
Just happiness.
Family, friends and girlfriends do not equal happiness. They may help you get there but they are not necessary. They don't always make you happy either.
You'll have to search to find what makes you happy but when you chase one thing you may not realize there are other things that also make you happy.
Sunrise in the middle of the forest, running, bicycling, driving along a country road, golf, target shooting, etc.
That's it, buddy, I'm suing you for stealing the werbert philosophy.
beaker
Pileated woodpecker
Joined: 17 Feb 2007
Age: 54
Gender: Male
Posts: 176
Location: Connecticut, United States
Aren't Smartwool socks da bomb?
Ahayes, I hope you're feeling better somehow.
Metta, Rjaye
Ahayes, short of the afterlife for suicides containing a combination of friendship, requited romantic love, the satisfaction of completing tasks and other positives answering the negative points you gave as reasons for contemplating suicide, I fail to see how it would meet ANY of your objectives. This is probably monstrously insensitive of me. I am hoping to diffuse the situation with humour. This is generally a mistake. O well.
Seriously, you are not alone in suffering many of these things. I do not wish to trivialise any of them, knowing as I do how painful and depressing they can be, but I do not think hastening your inevitable demise (inevitable unless you are immortal) will help.
There are some fates worse than dying alone (unless you mean without friends either, which is not really the case, unless we are all your mortal enemies or even objects of profound indifference). Actually, we could be just acquaintances, so I should not simplify things. As others here have pointed out, being in a requited romantic relationship does not exactly ensure happiness (I realise this knowledge does not exactly always stop me from getting depressed, self-pitying, envious and worse, so who am I to preach). Some couples have dreadful arguments, sometimes one of them betrays the other, there may be a lack of respect, etc. (What a cheerful line of inquiry this is NOT!) Is there anyone, here or elsewhere, whom you feel that you could talk to about anything without fear of judgement?
Dr Strangelove has battled with similar emotions for a very long time and has emerged. These things are very hard, but do not despair. This post will probably be of no use at all, but I hope against hope that, even if it only succeeds in making you roaring mad with me (quite justifiably in all probability) this emotion will at least displace despair. Anger can drive out sorrow, though it is probably not the best thing to replace it. Still probably better than death though. (Sorry if that last bit, or anything else, was insensitive or offensive).
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