Been there done that for many years in a self imposed exile after I failed to comprehend exactly how to stay paddling, I believe I've figured out what I'd like to try and piece together in my forays back, it is a slow process but I will be flitting in and out of the more rewarding and noble areas I see in the peculiar patchwork of what we deem 'society' and hoping to have a nice basket rapport whatever that means, that scary blaring siren song of a shiny sign masquerading pompously as society is too terrifying to embrace too trustingly after all, nomads like the sand and the sea but it's nice to have an island to sail from, takes a while wandering before you find one that works I guess.