Do you hate your life too?

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I self-loathe every now & then

Yes I do

i usually do. tho last few days, less so. nothing is easy, but if u keep standing up when knocked down, u get better at holding ur balance. sounds impossible? well, lets say a couple of days without meltdowns right now is a win for me. im pleased with myself. im failing in many things, some stuff allistics would do without noticing. i have physical systemic disorders, that add to the barrel, thats allready full. i had attempted a suicide a few months back. because i thought the world, and lives of ppl close to me, would be better without me. those people objected. had to cut contact with a few, though, who wouldnt stop driving me that way. which instantly affected my disposition for better. maybe u have somebody like that, and never see the danger? think, remember, if there is a person who MAKES u hate urself. if there is somebody, who sends u on guilt trips each time u see them. cut contact, no exeptions. doesnt matter if they proclaim that they mean well. also might need medication if u can get it. thats for a doctor to decide. this can be dealt with, and problems, however serious they are, start being managable. gradually. from the other side of terror to behold, i am speaking to u, it can be better. but u have to work for it. guardian demon, over.

I could hate myself, I could hate bits or parts of me, I could hate everyone, I could hate the world I live in, I could hate fate itself and the circumstances brought to me.

But I cannot hate my life. Even if I like death or the idea to cease of existence even more, I couldn't hate my life... I don't know why.

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No, if you still live with your parents it is unikely that someone would want to date you, especially if you're a complete loser. Im sorry but thats how it is. And its not that easy to get disability benefits, infact it is nearly impossible if you're not completely retardedd.

My life ok it's just lacking love.

I value my freedom and I used to live with my parents so I hope that never happens again.

I can understand why it would be easier for some to live with their parents, however.

You are absolutely right in that I should enjoy what I have.

If i did that i would just end up in a psych ward. No it really isnt that easy to get disability benefits even of you are completely f****d in the head. And i can not live forever with my parents.

No, I do not.

Why not?

I used to, and I attempted suicide when I was 15.

And things did not get much better for a pretty long time, eventually at the age of 26 after trying various psych meds, going through multiple counselers and a couple stays in the psych ward. I got a good trauma therapist who finally was able to really help me let go of some of the crap I was holding onto. I am doing better, but I still qualify for SSI due to aspergers and still some anxiety issues.

It can be hard to get on disability with just mental issues and aspergers, but its possible. What you need to do is get a disability lawyer to appeal your case when you get a denial. You also get medicaid if you are on disability which you can use to try and get help for the depression and anxiety. Once you are feeling more mentally stable(which can take a long time) you can work with vocational rehabilitation to get work skills and eventually a consistent job. And you can keep your SSI when you start out, they will deduct some depending on how much money you make. If you start making too much to continue recieving SSI but something happens and you need it again you can get back on it.

Right now it may not feel like anything can get better, I was skeptical as well when I was in the worst of my depression, figured I'd always be miserable but that was not the case. I admit I am not like 100% happy there are still issues but at least now I can breath and am not just being crushed by it.

You just have to try not to give up, even when its very difficult and you can certainly get past some of this and reach a point where you don't hate your life.

But disability benefits are low, how can you life comfortable on that without being dirt poor? Especially in the US?