Panic attacks.

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Anyways goodnight from my wacky suburban hacker hovel. I wish you all less insomnia than mine.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

cberg, i am very sorry for not being here when needed. for what i gather, my account had been accidently blocked and it took this long to get it back operational. mistakes happen, ya. so to insomnia, i wont even start on mine xd if u can do some sufficient physical activity, that is cool. tho tbh, physical fatigue doesnt do much when mind is racing. im sorry, im so incoherent right now. lack of sleep is getting to me xd

No worries! I'm pretty much back to normal just not under any less pressure. I'm trying to spend more time on WP to stick around people in some sense as long as I'm still doing almost nothing but work.

The freakouts are less intense when I remember to actually relax.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

if u manage to relax, thats really great))) it does help, a LOT. i guess i have a problem with that xD anyways, good to know u feel some bit better. hope it gets to some decent level of safety) please keep updating)

I wish I could relax voluntarily. I mean I can get somewhere but I'm nowhere near being able to carry a hammock somewhere & actually make use of it. I can hardly relax even when I'm sedated beyond reason.

Hyper-vigilance is just such a pain in the ass. I have to be completely exhausted before it stops at all.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Bleh, here goes another one. I guess I'm lucky I'm really tired.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

YA cberg, related and related. i have to be stone tired before i can sleep. i wake up allready exhausted, too. never feeling rested. never feeling relaxed. ptsd has that effect. on bad days people have to take shifts watching over me.


maybe u really need a dischord connect so that i (or other people who have a LOT of skill, dealing with my s**t) could help u faster?

If it's any help, I'm also having trouble sleeping, feeling hyper-alert…...if that is what you refer to. I know sod all what to do with it. One thing that's been helping a little bit though is listening to binaural beats on youtube...there are some for asperger's, they help me calm down to some extent.

Cheers from one insomniac to another.

Well it turned out I was sick also; last night was a combination of this & delirious madness, luckily a good cat sits in for people in general when I'm stuck dealing with this. I guess I'm more paranoid about a total lack of people around me than anyone in general. I don't want to force anyone else to put up with this but I do want them to realize what I'm dealing with so I can help them with their own troubles.

I think reactions to trauma aren't just evolution screwing us over, it's more a matter of preparing oneself for a completely different role in everyone's lives than was ever planned for.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

we can never be understood. not in a thousand years. but trying, honestly trying, counts. link incoming.

I guess my work on becoming more approachable can't really be appreciated by me alone. I'm not trying to spend my whole weekend alone but maybe it's a good idea.

Anyway underwater's suggestion is helping, I'm listening to this right now. Time to combine it with more helpful plants.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

interesting. i tried it and felt growing anxiety and tension straight away. can it be because of barely subsided ptsd outbreak or i am weird even for an aspergerian? xd guess i stick to linkin park, candlemass, disturbed and other less conventional means xD (i fight for the unconventional!) xD ALSO, cberg, awaiting u. the links can expire. also they can be finicky and u might need another one before it works.

i am using earset. not to focus tho is a different thing. cant do that xdd anyways, i just stick to what works for me. also, will really need to get afk soon. its so late, its early here - 7 AM. i really should've been asleep for a couple of hours, if not for some (many bad adjectives) NT person who just had to press my triggers despite all warnings and leave me in a need of emergency psycho-patchup (WHICH took another hour or few ya) i really should try to catch some shut-eye now. try to stay safe out there^^