"What is wrong with me?"

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Yes but there is something wrong with everything

I keep asking myself this, but I have an answer: The problem is the real world, the world in my head is perfect.

I concur and in part I've been trained. I want to instead ask "What is Wrong with Other People?"

What is wrong with a person that they belittle somebody in need? ("S/he is just faking")
What is wrong with a person that they ignore somebody in need? ("S/he just wants attention")

Why is what I think and how I respond "wrong", when it's simply different?
Because it is "inconvenient" for others. Well, they are inconvenient for me.

My ASD coach says it this way: Adults typically behave in this range of behaviors [hands up, palms facing each other two inches (five centimeters) apart]. You behave in this range [palms five inches (twelve centimeters) apart].

My behavior is unexpected for many folks. Some folks are curious, adjust or are otherwise kind; other folks are not.

I think you're right... it is other people who are wrong for always making me feel horrible about myself. But I can't do anything about it because I'm weak.

Do you get any spending money of your own? One good thing to do for yourself is to learn money skills.

Not really, I have to ask my mom to buy me anything because I'm no good with money.

I am weak... and I am strong. I am learning to assert myself. It's hard b/c I get very upset and so shutdown to avoid meltdown. Now that I know a strong reaction is normal for me, I am hoping to handle it with more care and compassion --- for myself, and then I can stand stronger.

I will be with my parents and sibling later this month and hope for the first time to be my proud(er) self. In the past I tried so hard to please them (or at least not upset them) and yet inevitably they'd be upset with me. Time will tell, how this goes...

I'm sorry you have been "wronged". (pun intended)